The Day You Ruined My Life

Talking to Bailey

.:Recap:.

As I drove, I thought really hard about everything. What Rae said, what Dan said, what I did see in his eyes and what I didn't have the chance to figure out what it was in there. How I felt about him, what I'd done with him today and on Saturday, and how freaked out I was about feeling like I would do anything that boy asked me to do. I needed an outside opinion, and I knew exactly who I was going to call. I hadn't seen her in about 7 years but we were always so close, that everytime we've talked sinceshe moved, we just picked right back up from where we left off. I grabbed my phone from the center console and started to scroll through the contacts to find her number. She's know what to do, she always did, and has never had any problem telling me off or that I'm being a complete prawn. Plus, I loved Rae but I just didn't feellike she was the right person to talk to about this. It rang and rang and rang, but I wasn't worried, she always answered for me,morning, noon or night. She had a four year old, so she might take a few rings, but she'll answer.

"Hello?"

Chapter 10

"BAAAAILEYYYYY!!!!"

"Oh good god Kathleen, what did you do now? The only time you don't call me Bay is when something is up and you need me to set you straight. So, what is it?" This girl knew me way too well, it was almost scary, in a comforting kind of way.

I thought for a second about what exactly I wanted to say and how I should phrase it so that I got my point across to her accurately. After a few short moments thinking about it, I started, "Weeellllll, ummm, so" I had a bad habit of stammering when I didn't exactly like what it was I was about to say to anyone, especially Bailey. Even when she couldn't see my face, this damn girl could read me like a friggin book. "Ok, so, I'll be as honest and quick with this as I can, I know matt gets home from school soon. But, anywho, soo..."

"Just spit it out Kat, I haven't got all day as you just kindly reminded me."

"Jeez, fine, ok, so, there's this guy Dan, and..." I proceeded to tell her everything from going out to the party with Dan, him slipping me ecstasy, and the crazy night of fantastic sex we had. Then about what happened with Raechel and then again with Dan at his house. After I finished telling her everything, which felt like it was all in one quick, rushed breath, so that I wouldn't have the chance to chicken out and not tell her everything. After what felt like a lifetime of silence over the line, she let out a long sigh.

"Sooo, pretty much you want me to validate you're feelings and tell you it's all ok and that doing all that shit with him was fine since it's so out of character for you to do any of that and hey, he's hott, so it's no big deal, right? Uhhhh, honestly girl, it sounds like you've already made up your mind about this whole shebackle and just needed to hear someone tell you it's ok. I mean, am I wrong?" She didn't sound bitchy when she said it, but hearing the words come out of her mouth and knowing that they were pretty much spot on to the truth, it kinda hit me like a punch in the gut.

"Ummmm, kinda...." I answered meekly. "Well, I mean, no, you're not wrong. Ugh. I guess I really did just need to hear it from someone else to put things in perspective for me."

"Well then Kat, if you already knew exactly what was going through your head and how you feel about this guy, what was then point in trying to get me to tell you exactly what you already knew to be true? Hmmm?"

I hadn't really thought about it, but I guess she was right. I mean, she was always the party girl before she moved to Tenessee and she had to drag me to go out to parties. Me, her, and Rae used to be like the three amigos but since she moved, it was just me and Rae. But, anywho, she did know me better than I knew myself most of the time, and I guess even though I already knew exactly what I was feeling, I guess hearing it from someone else's mouth is exactly what it took for me to really get it. But between her telling me to do what I wanted to do since I'd already made my mind up, and Rae telling me to lighten up and stop being such a party pooper, I decided that I knew exactly what I wanted, no, needed to do.