Song is just one that I'm in love with right now, it honestly has very little to do with the rant. But if you want to cry to a beautiful song this is the best I got for you right now.
Loneliness is one of the worst feelings in the world.
Probably second to stubbing your toe, I don't know I'm no genius.
So I have one sister who has been pretty decent most of my life. But recently she just...changed. I'm not sure why but she decided it's fun to torture me. As most of you know, I have pretty fucking bad depression and anxiety. I'm very self conscious and pretty much hate 100% of myself. My sister has started pointing out the error in everything I do. She makes fun of the way I laugh, the way I stand, what I say, how I say it, how I look, etc. I won't bore you with the endless list. But basically her pointing out the things I already hate doesn't help my mental health in any way.
I also hate when people take pictures or videos of me because, again, super self conscious. My sister doesn't respect that and takes videos and pictures of me all the time. She sends them to her friends and posts them on social media.
Anyway
About 45 minutes ago she asked me for help with something. She asked me which song she was thinking of and sang a little bit of it. I didn't know and asked why. She showed me a video of me from a few months ago where I laughed at something and it kinda sounded like part of the song and she told me she wanted to make an edit of me. I asked her many times to delete it because I didn't know she was recording me at the time and I didn't want her to have it on her phone. Of course my sister is a fucking bitch so she just laughed and said no. She then told me to shut up and quit being bossy. So for the past 45 minutes I've been crying because i'M sEnSiTiVe AuBrEy. I have no one else to rant to because most of my friends are at band practice, one is at camp, and the others I don't really think would help much so here I am. Basically screaming into the abyss that is wattpad.
That's kinda all for now... goodbye abyss I will be back.
P.S. about that fluff fic...I'm afraid it isn't good enough so I might wait a little bit before posting it but we'll see I guess.
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