I Need You

Chapter 16

I opened my eyes to a bright room. I closed my eyes and tried again. I looked around the room. I was in a hospital room. I saw Namjoon sitting in a chair on his phone.

"Joonie." I say.

Namjoon looks up at me. Relief in his eyes. He has dark circles under his eyes, as if he hasn't slept in a while.

"Lola, you are awake! Thank God!" Namjoon said happily.

"Yeah, what am I doing here?" I ask.

"You don't remember?" he asks.

"Nope."

"Lola, you got shot."

Suddenly the memory came back to me. I gasped.

"Why?"

"Well James hired the guy. He was suppose to kidnap you and take you back to him and your mother. But I guess he panicked and shot you."

"Oh. Where is everyone?" I ask.

"The guys are working, and Enid and Axel were here a few hours ago."

I nodded and tried to sit up. Big mistake. I felt pain.

"Ah!" I yelled.

"Lola, are you okay?" Namjoon asked.

"Yeah, just in a bit of pain."

Namjoon walked out of the room and returned with a doctor.

"Mrs. Kim, glad to see you are finally awake." the doctor said.

"How long was I out for?"

"Ten days."

"Oh. Okay."

"So how are you feeling?" he asked.

"I'm fine. Just have a bit of pain."

"Well we have to talk about that. We took a blood sample from you and tested it. Turns out you are pregnant. So we cant give you the strong medicine."

"I'm what?" I ask.

"Pregnant. About 5 weeks. We need to get an ultrasound to get the correct date."

"Okay."

The doctor walked out and Namjoon just looked at me.

"How are you pregnant?" he asked

"Umm, not too long ago, I was raped at a party, remember the guy I had ran into at the park? That's the only time.." I say.

"Okay. So then whatever you want to do, I will support your decision." Namjoon said

I nodded and laid down. I can't be pregnant. Not now. I am too young. I'm not ready. But the thought about aborting this baby, it hurts and makes me sad. The doctor came back in and had an ultrasound machine. He confirmed I'm five weeks and a few days pregnant. I just laid there as Namjoon sat next to me. No one spoke. Both of us caught in our own thoughts. I texted Jin.

Me: Jinnie! I need to talk.

Jin: What's wrong?

Me: I will tell you when you get here. Please hurry. Can you please bring me some stuff, I want to take a shower.

Jin: Of course, I will be there soon.

I sighed and put my phone down. I looked at Namjoon.

"So Jin is coming and bringing me some clothes and stuff because I want to take a shower." I tell him.

"Okay, but you need a nurse to do the bandaging when you get done."

"Okay. Why don't you go get some work done, since Jin is coming and I'm fine." I tell him.

"Alright. I will be back later, we have a lot to talk about." Namjoon said.

I nodded as Namjoon kissed my cheek and walked out of the room. I finally felt like I could breathe right. Soon Jin came in and helped me to the bathroom. I turned on the shower, and brushed my teeth while waiting for the water to warm up. Then I jumped in the shower. The hot water felt amazing. It felt good getting clean. Once I was done I got dressed and walked out. There was a nurse talking to Jin.

"I called a nurse to change your bandage." Jin said smiling at me.

"Thanks Jinnie." I smiled back.

I sat on the bed carefully and let the nurse change the wound. It hurt. A lot. But I toughed it out. Once the nurse was done and gone Jin turned towards me.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

"I'm pregnant."

Jin just stared at me. So I told him the events that had occurred.

"And it's not Joon's?" Jin asked.

"No. We haven't been intimate yet. It's that guy that raped me at the party the night before I met Namjoon. I'm scared. I'm not ready to be a mom yet. I just barely graduated high school. And Namjoon. I don't know how he would feel if I kept this kid that isn't his."

"Lola, breathe. It's going to be okay. Namjoon loves you, and he knows that you being pregnant is not your fault. He is going to support you no matter what you decide. Me and the others as well." Jin says.

I felt better talking to Jin. He was so sweet and nice. Like another older brother. Soon the rest of the guys came. I noticed Jin and Hoseok looking at each other. The guys made me feel better and brought me snacks. Jin promised to keep my pregnancy a secret until Namjoon and I talked and figured things out. Eventually the guys left and I laid down. I was exhausted. I was falling asleep when I heard the room door open. There stood Namjoon with wet hair, sweat pants and a tshirt. Man he was looking so good.

"Hey." he said sitting down next to me.

"Hey." I replied sitting up.

"How are you?"

"I'm fine. I feel better now that I'm fed and showered. But Namjoon we need to talk."

"Yeah, we do. How do you feel about being pregnant?" Namjoon asked.

"Well I don't feel ready to be a mom. I feel like I'm too young. But a small part of me is excited to be a mom. I'm scared because this isn't your baby. And since we are married, I don't want you to be forced into raising a kid that isn't yours."

"Lola, listen to me. I love you. And if you want to keep the baby, I will gladly raise this baby as my own. No one will have to know that I'm not the father."

"But the baby wont be full Korean. I'm only half and the dude is white."

"I will still claim that child as mine. And I will love it and protect just like I would do for you."

"Okay, well I have made my decision then." I tell him.

"Okay. What is it?"

"Even though I'm terrified, I want to keep the baby. I know with your help, and the guys, as well as Enid and Axel, I will be fine. This baby will be loved." I say.

"Great, I will have a nursery started as soon as possible." Namjoon said with a smile.

I smiled back and laid back down. I can't believe he is willing to raise this baby with me. It makes me see him differently. I don't love him yet, but I do like him a lot. I fell asleep smiling.