I Need You

Chapter 11

I woke to bright lights. I quickly closed my eyes. I then blinked my eyes until I could see. I saw white all around me. I heard beeping as well. I sat up and saw Namjoon and the guys in the room.

"Where am I?" I asked.

"Lola, thank god you are alright." Namjoon said.

"You are in the hospital, Lola. You lost a lot of blood." Jin said sadly.

"Oh."

"Lola, why would you try killing yourself?" Namjoon asked.

"Because I'm not worth it. I was a mistake that no one wants."

"That's not true." Jimin piped up.

"Yeah noona. I want you as my sister." Taehyung said.

"But the people that gave me life don't want me. And Namjoon, you don't want me. I'm not pretty enough, I'm too broken and damaged for you."

"No. Don't say that. Who cares if they don't want you. I do."

"Who would have thought that Joon would have turned so soft so quick." Yoongi said laughing.

"That's what love does to you." Jimin replied.

'That's true. Look how soft you went for Jimin." Hoseok said.

"Guys, can I talk to Jimin alone, please?" I asked.

They all nodded and walked out.

"What happened?"

"Well I heard everything my uncle said. I then saw you run out crying. I then told him how you had a bad childhood. And about how much of an ass he was being. Then I went to follow you. I heard crying and the bath running. I got worried so I ran to get Joon. He kept banging on the door, I never seen him so upset and scared before. When he finally busted the door open, we found you in the tub full of water and blood, you were unconscious, he thought you were dead. We wrapped you up and rushed you here."

"I'm sorry to be such trouble." I said crying again.

"Lola, you are no trouble at all. In fact, I think you are good for Joon. I haven't seen him like this in a long time. He seems happier. I also think Joon is good for you."

"No. I'm not."

Jimin shook his head and handed me my phone.

"Better text your brother. He has been calling and texting you" Jimin said.

I saw the many texts from Axel.

Me: Axel, hey I'm sorry. I am fine. It just had been crazy here. Trying to get settled and meeting with my dad.

Axel: Thank goodness you are okay. I was worried about you. I'm glad you are getting settled. And have you met him yet?

Me: Yes, but it seems he doesn't want to believe it, even though I look just like him, minus the green eyes.

Axel: I'm sorry. Are you coming back?

Me: I'm not sure yet. I think I'm going to stay and try to understand my Korean side.

Axel: Okay sis. Just be careful and check in with me please.

Me: Of course. It won't happen again. I'm tired so I'm going to rest. Bye.

Axel: Okay. Bye sis.

I spent 3 days in the hospital. Kora came a few days ago and we picked out a dress. Namjoon and the guys have been keeping a closer eye on me since. Its annoying, but makes me feel loved. It was the morning of the wedding. I was sitting in my chair getting my hair and makeup done. Once that was done, I was able to get up and walk around before I had to put on my dress. There was a knock on the door. Jin and the guys walked in.

"Hey, why aren't you dressed yet?" Jin asked.

"I'm about to put the dress on. I just need some help.

Jin and Jimin jumped in to help me get in my dress. They followed me to the bathroom. Jin laced up the back as Jimin stood there smiling so big, his eyes disappeared. I walked out of the bathroom and all the guys mouths dropped.

"How do I look?"

"You are gorgeous noona." Taehyung said.

"Yeah. Gorgeous."

I smiled. Then Jin grabbed my hand and got ready to escort me to the back yard. I was nervous but ready to get this over with. We got in front of the closed double doors that led outside.

"Ready?" Jin asked.

"Eh, I guess. Let's just get this over with."

Jin smiled and the doors were opened. There were only a few people, about fifty, sitting there in the chairs. I held Jin's arm tightly as we walked down the aisle. Once we got to Namjoon, Jin kissed my cheek and handed me to Namjoon. The priest then went through the motions I half payed attention.

"Lola Matthews, do you take Kim Namjoon to be your lawfully wedded husband, to have and to hold, in sickness and in health, for richer or poorer as long as you both shall live?" the priest asked me.

"I do." I lied.

"Kim Namjoon, do you take Lola Matthews to be your lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold, in sickness and in health, for richer or for poorer as long as you both shall live?"

"I do" Namjoon said smiling.

"I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss your bride."

Namjoon went in for the kiss. I wanted to smack him away. But I didn't want to embarrass him in front of his dad. His threat still fresh in my mind. So I kissed him. And it was the best kiss ever. I hate that I liked it so much. He pulled away first with a huge smile on his face. I never noticed his adorable dimples when he smiles. I smiled back. Then we held hands and walked inside.

"Namjoon, can I go change into the reception dress? I'm afraid to get this dress dirty."

"Wait for more pictures first."

We took pictures with his family and the guys and some more people. Once we were done he let me go so I could change. Why did I have to like the kiss so much. And why did it set me in fire like it did? Am I falling for him? No, I can't be, can I? I shook the thoughts away as I stepped into my blue strapless dress. It was figure hugging, which I felt uncomfortable in, but still wore. I then put my white high heels back on and went back downstairs.

"Noona!" Taehyung yelled running to me.

"Tae Tae!" I yelled back laughing.

He hugged me and I hugged him back. Then I walked to Namjoon and we went to our seats.