I Need You

Chapter 2

Trigger warning!!!!

I got up and walked to my room numbly. Thankfully Enid was there to help me. Once in my room, I sat on my bed.

"Start packing. We are moving out tonight." Axel said.

I just nodded. He asked Enid to help me pack. I got up and started packing the stuff on my dresser. My knick-knacks from Enid and Axel. Soon I had everything packed. Axel had some of his buddies come and help with the moving. Enid helped as well. Soon everything was packed in Axel's and his friends trucks. I looked at mom and dad.

"Well goodbye. You won't be seeing me anymore. I am finally free from all the abuse you have put me through. I hope you guys will be happier with me not in the house anymore." I said.

I then turned around and headed to Axel's truck. I got in and we left. Enid held my hand as we drove away. I didn't even look back. I was happy to be moving, but sad because of the news my mom told me. I always knew I was different, but I didn't think this was the reason. I wonder if he even knows about me. And if he did, did he look for me? Or does he just not care? I wish I knew these answers. I chatted with Enid the whole ride to the new apartment. Once we were there, Axel and his friends unloaded the trucks and stayed to help with Axel's stuff. Enid and I went into my room and there was a bed and dressers already there. So I put my clothes away while Enid made my bed and decorated. We finished in time to hear the doorbell. I wondered who it was, so I walked into the living room and saw Axel closing the door with pizzas in his hand.

"Lola, hungry?" Axel asked.

"No, not really. I'm just going to take a shower and then lay down, Enid is staying the night, since its Friday. and getting late." I tell Axel.

"Okay, that's fine. But you need to eat. I know mom and dad never fed you a lot. Please eat something before you go to bed. For me." Axel said sweetly.

"Ugh, fine. But only for you." I say.

Axel handed me a plate and I ate. Enid was sitting next to me staring at Axel.

"Ugh, just talk to him E." I whispered.

"I cant. He just sees me as his little sister's friend." Enid whispered back.

"Go tell him how you feel. The worst he could say was no." I tell her.

"Okay. I will, after his friends leave." Enid said.

"Okay."

I finished my pizza, and threw the paper plate away, and walked into the my room, grabbed my robe and a towel and my soaps and walked to the bathroom. I stood there as the water got hot. I washed my face and stared at the bruises. Some fresh from the day before, some old and healing. I was gross. It hurt looking into the mirror. My green almond shaped eyes were dull and lifeless. My pale skin littered with black, blue, brown and yellow bruises, my arms and legs littered with scars. I was broken. Fifteen years of abuse does that to a person. No one will ever love me. I am unlovable and a waste. I start crying as I keep telling myself these things. I quickly look for a razor. When I find one, I lock the bathroom door, and I sit on the floor with the razor in my hand. I find a spot on my arm, and drag the razor across my skin, I feel the pain and I sigh. I watch the blood seep out as I feel lighter. Suddenly all my bad thoughts leave and I feel at peace. I sit there for a few minutes watching the blood. I jumped when I heard a knock on the door. I scrambled off the floor and cleaned everything up.

"Lola, are you okay in there?" Enid asked.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I will be out in a minute." I reply.

Once everything is clean, I strip and jump in the shower. The water is hot and relaxing. I quickly washed my hair and body. Then I jumped out and dried myself off. Put my bra and panties on and then my robe. I then wrapped my hair in my towel, fixed my arm and walked out of the bathroom and into my bedroom. Enid was laying on my bed. I walked into my closet and grabbed my favorite hoodie and pajama shorts. Once I was done Enid grabbed my hand and led me to the living room. There was Axel and his friends with a birthday cake. I smiled and felt the tears coming out of my eyes.

"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Lola, happy birthday to you."

Everyone sang as I blew out my candles.

"Thanks everyone. This was the best birthday yet." I say crying.

Axel and all his friends hugged me. I cut the cake and we all had cake as we watched a movie. Soon the movie finished and I was ready for bed.

"Good night Axel, Brian, Mike and Austin. I'm going to bed." I say getting up off the floor.

"Good night." they all say in unison.

I chuckled as I walked into my room, Enid following me. Once the door was shut Enid spoke.

"Okay, spill" she said.

"What?' I asked.

"Your face."

"Oh." I say.

Shit, I forgot. Well looks like I have to tell her now. Here goes. I sat Enid on my bed and I told her everything, except about the cutting. She sat there listening and crying.

"Why didn't you tell me sooner?" she asked.

"I didn't want anyone to know." I said back.

"Well I could have helped you." she said

"No. Not even Axel could help, and he tried. He really did."

Enid hugged me as we sat there. Eventually she pulled away.

"Well I will be back. I'm going to get ready for bed." I say.

I go brush my teeth and then head to my room. I hear voices talking in the living room. I quietly walk closer to hear. It is Enid and Axel.

"You are so pretty Enid." Axel says.

"Really? I didn't think you would like me, seeing how I am your little sister's friend."

"I have always thought you were pretty. You just didn't realize it." Axel said.

"Oh."

"So can I take you out tomorrow around noon?" Axel asked.

"Yes, I will be ready" Enid said.

"Okay, see you then. Good night Enid."

"Good night Axel."