The time I was in love with him now I'm married to him.

Part 30: Talking (Part 2).

~The Next Day~

[Sun. August 19th 2018]

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[Still] ~ My Pov:

Once I say this I place my hands on my face to try and hide my tears as I continue to cry.

But as I'm crying I feel a pair of soft hands on mine which tells me he wants me to look at him again.

So as this is going through my mind I remove my hands away from my face and I look at him as tears continue to leave my eyes.

As I'm looking at him he gently places his hands on my face and wipes my tears away.

Tae: "Baby what do you mean you don't want to go through this again?"

Me: "Like I said I don't want to go through this again."

Once I say this he takes me off of his lap and he gets up heading to the bathroom which tells me he's upset with me.

Once he makes it to the bathroom he looks at me with sadness in his eyes.

But before he closes the door in my face he says something to me.

Tae: "So you're saying you don't want to have this baby?"

Before I can even answer him he shuts the door in my face leaving me wondering what I should do now.

While I'm standing here looking at the door I'm trying my hardest not to break down.

But at the same time I love him and the last thing I ever want to do is hurt him.

Me: "Baby please open the door let's talk about this."

Tae: "Why because it's obvious you don't want us having another baby."

Me: "Baby that's not true just please open the door."

Once I say this I continue to stand here waiting for him to open the door.

While I'm standing here the door suddenly opens but My Fiance is standing at the sink with his head down.

Which tells me this has him really upset and broken which is something I never wanted for him.

As I'm standing here looking at him I can see that he is really hurt by this.

So I walk up to him and give him a back hug hoping he will either forgive me or talk to me.

Me: "Baby please talk to me."

As I'm saying this I'm trying my best to hold back my tears that are trying so hard to leave my eyes.

But I know I need to be strong because all I've been doing is crying so I need to stay strong and try my best to get through this.

While this goes through my mind I hug him tighter not wanting to let him go.

As I'm hugging him I feel tears leaving my eyes which tells me I'm hurting just as bad as he is.

While these tears continue to leave my eyes I close my eyes to try and keep myself calm.

But as I'm doing this I hear a sudden voice which causes me to open my eyes.

Tae: "Why should we even talk it's obvious you don't want this baby."

As he says this he looks at me in the mirror as I continue to hug him.

Me: "Baby that's not true at all."

While I'm saying this I'm trying to get my words out without having a shaky voice or sound like I'm crying.

But as I'm saying this he turns around which causes me to let go of the hug.

Now that I'm standing here no longer in his arms.

The only thing I can do now is look at the floor as tears start leaving my eyes and run down my cheeks.

Tae: "If that's not true then look me in the eyes and tell me the real reason why you can't go through this again."

As he says this I look up and look into his eyes.

Which are filled with nothing but saddness which is something that easily breaks my heart.

As I look into his sad eyes I wipe my tears away so I can speak up clearly and tell him the truth.

Me: "Because I don't want to go through the pain,the hormones and the mood swings I don't want to go through any of that again."

Tae: "So you want to give up our little girl or boy all because of pain,hormones and mood swings that only last a few months because you don't want to go through it again?"

Me: "Baby I didn't say that."

Tae: "Yes you did."

Me: "That's not what I meant."

Tae: "Then what did you mean because it seems like you don't want this baby of ours."

Me: "See you don't understand."

Tae: "What do you mean I don't understand."

Me: "You aren't the one that has to go through the pain,the mood swings the hormones, eating all the time, feeling tired all the time, stressing over the tinest of things,people calling you fat everywhere you go and the worst thing is being sick all the time you aren't the one that has to deal with it I do."

Once I say this I feel like breaking down every second the more I think about what's going on with me.

While these things go through my mind I realize I am no longer standing up looking into My Fiance's eyes.

But I'm sitting here on our bathroom floor covering myself with our white cloud like sheets and I'm covering my face with my hands as I cry.

As I'm sitting here crying I am suddenly getting picked up which causes me to remove my hands from my face to see what's going on.

~What will happen next?~

~Only way to know is read Part 97~
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Published on: Sat. July 13th 2019 at 4:54 PM

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