Philophobia (prucan because I'm a sucker)

Difficult Difficult Lemon Difficult

*suggestion for the majority of this chapter by Yaoifangirl3206 😉👍 thank you cause I was going in blind. Prussia's PoV*

When I woke up the first thing I noticed was my lack of a shirt. Then I saw Matthew sitting at the edge of my bed, wearing one of my shirts.

"Hey there, sexy" I said wrapping my arms around him from the back.

Then I noticed how upset he looked.

"Hey, what's wrong?"

"Gilbert, I know you've said it before but- Do you really love me?"

"Matthew if anything that happened yesterday or the day before wasn't enough to convince you-"

He quickly cut me off and turned to face me with a worried expression. "That's the problem though, Gil. Everything that happened was super sexual, and I don't want to be in another relationship that's solely for sex."

"I get it. It won't just be sex." I said, reaching out to touch his face, only to have my hand pushed away.

"No you Don't get it! You couldn't possibly get it Gilbert! You've never been with someone who only wanted you for your body and still told you they loved you! You haven't had a relationship where you get beaten then raped every time you did something slightly wrong! I lived for four years with that guy and not once did I ever have a say in what I could do with my body! How could you tell me you get that?! How could you tell me you understand what that feels like?!" he seemed surprised by his own outburst because as soon as he had finished he shoved me away and stood up, covering his face like he was scared of me. "I'm so sorry. I-I shouldn't have- I shouldn't have said that, I'm sorry."

"No, I'm sorry. There's no way I could possibly understand what you've been through. But I want to. I want to understand you better Matthew, I don't want you to feel like you did when you were with him, I want you to feel safe with me. And I do understand that that may take a long time but I'm willing to wait with you."

I stood up and walked to where Matthew was and wrapped my arms around him.

"Thank you."

We stayed like that for ages, just holding each other.

That was until we heard the door slam shut.

There's no way Ludwig is getting back now right? He usually stays at Feli's until way later than this.

"Come on." I said, taking Matthew's hand and pulling him down stairs.

"Come out Gilbert I know you're here." I recognised that voice. I felt Matthew tense next to me and I knew he recognised it too.

"Stay here. I'll deal with this." I whispered to him. He nodded and gave me a quick kiss before I went to meet my old family friend.

"So you are dating my whore then." Caleb said as I stepped into view.

"Don't talk about him like that." I felt myself filling with rage, he came into my house after I told him to never come back, and talking shit about my boyfriend.