My Ex is A Star

Feeling

I've stressed out about the last problems, but I'm a good one for pretending like nothing happened. Today is weekend and Sally wanted to visit me, it's time to calming myself.

I spent 60% time in the bathtub and do nothing. I'm still thinking what would happen next to my relationship with him. And if he know it too, I'm not sure he'll be fine. I don't eat any food for now, no desire to them.

Knock knock

Sally is here now.

" Hi. " I greeted her bitterly.

" Oh, come here. It's okay, sweetie. " Her warm hug came covered by the warmer sweater she wore.

" Thanks. " I'm out of words. Just tears.

" You seemed pale Helena, are u okay? Haven't you eat ? Hey ! Answer me now. " She freaked out. And her both palms in my cheeks.

" I'm okay sis. Calm down. " I felt weak actually.

After several short conversation, Sally went out to get our dinner. And I keep doing nothing while laying down in the bed. Sally cares about me, and I just wanna get those things out of my head but I can't. I don't know if I can last with him, I have bad feeling about it. And it felt so bad.

" Hey ! C'mon. Cheers tho. " She came back with pastas and a couple of Bobba Thai tea.

Then she opened the packs for her and me. We talked about the same thing.

" What do you think ? Am I gonna make it ? " I asked her with full of hesitation while grabbing her hand.

" Don't say that, please. You must believe, you can do it, you're a tough girl. " She did wide smile to me, and asked me to eat because if I didn't I shall be sick soon.

" My feeling saying the other way... " I keep continued and forcing.

" Eat now ! Please. Take a good rest afterwards. I don't wanna let you down sis. You're such a mess, but I won't let it happen. " She was mad, and I'm distracted her by complimenting how good that the pasta and the boba tea.

Then we watched some of our favorite new series. And fangirling such a listening to Edgy's songs and find latest his picture on social media together until midnight, I know it's not good for me but I don't care anymore.