My Ex is A Star

Romantic Anniversary

Almost a month passed.

Everytimes he texted me, I replied it bitterly. I know it makes me kinda asshole but I guess I can't take it anymore. He will back for a couple weeks so we can getting back together.

One thing in my head. How could I stop this ?

Edgy :
" The tour goes fine and only 15 more days. Can't wait to see you again. "

Me : " Okay. I'm here. "

Edgy :
" I'll take you to the romantic cafe when I got back there. You ready ? "

Me : " Yeah, cool. "

Edgy :
" Um, everythings okay hun ? "

Me : " Totally. "

Edgy :
" Well okay. Tell me if you need anything, and we can also video call. "

Me : " Not now. Bye. ☺ "

Edgy : " Bye hunny. Take care. "

He always trying to be sweet, but I'm being such a mess to myself and this relationship tho, I hate it. I don't know what would happen soon when he comeback here. I'm sure he already know I have changed, but I wanna tell him about those things soon. He's on his tour, I don't wanna bother him.
The worse, when his tour over soon, it's right to our first Anniversary and I'm shook of it.

Last Day On Tour

Edgy :
" I'm packing up the stuff and prepare to get to see u again. I got several things for you. "

And I tried to not so flat with him. He noticed our anniversary so well, and preparing for something that I don't know. 2 days more, I don't wanna make him disappointed. So I prepared for myself too, I took a short spa to take care of myself. And he kept texting me, showing how much he missed me. This time I don't feel nervous as usually, I also picked a good dress for the anniversary.

Finally, today is the day. I got better. I'm making sure I look pretty for tonight, only for tonight.
He only text a message today.

Edgy : " 9pm. The romantic Cafe, our anniversary. "

I read it without replied it. Then I chat with Sally to get preach for ' what should a woman do during anniversary event '. Therefore, this is my first time, my first love. I also fixing my mood up by watching Edgy's music videos lol.

9pm
I drove my own car to the cafe.
Yup, this is why I wanna look beautiful, this is why I dressed up so nice. Night of our Anniversary, this is it. He sat looking at his watch and also chandelier. Honestly I'm excited, I've been dreaming about all of this. My moment became so dreamy, again.

" Damn, you look so good with that clothes on. " He looked in me and yeah thanks I feel beautiful.

" Just for you. " I pulled my chair and gave him my best real smile. I sat down.

He looked really happy to meet me again. Well, I think I'm not gonna mess it for tonight. He wanted to kiss me but I said we could save it for the last.

" Happy Anniversary hunny ! So happy to see you again. And sorry that I left you alone for a long time. How are you ? " He started a warm conversation with his deep voice.

" Happy Anniversary too ! I'm okay, nothing to worried about. " I replied shortly.

" Well, there's something I wanna talk about after this. " He called a waiter and we ordered menu. My feeling is not good at the moment.

Done with the delicious cuisines. He grabbed my both hand and look into my eyes.

" Helena, I will take you to more serious way. Will you ? " That sentences just shot an arrow inside my head. I don't know how to refuse it without hurting him.

" Uh... I think I'm not ready yet. Sorry. Bye, I wanna go home. See u soon. " I ran away through my car and went home.

" Okay. Everytime you ready. Take your time. " And I heard that little voice from behind and I was dropped some tears while running, I know I can't.

I went straight to home and act like nothing happened. I don't wanna tell this to anyone. What a pity of him. Fuck me, I just break his heart, and I really hate myself right now. Such a mess, duh.

I won't message him for a while. Just to keep myself in the right place. I don't want to hurt me more deeper. Enough. This could be our last romantic moment.