My Ex is A Star

Aftertaste (epilogue)

That was the worst decision I've ever made. Like the end of my perfect love story, and I think it was too fast.

It's still hurt, although it has been a long time ago. And I realized that I really need to move on, cause it is used to be.

Firstly, imagine that my office is nearby his studio. So, almost every day I could see his face again. Moreover, he is a great singer that his songs were always played on radio, mall, cafe or even sang loud by people around me. Yes, at first I'm a maniac of his songs. But since the thundercloud came all the songs are like long needles that pierce my ears, because every time I hear a little of the song, I immediately remember my precious moments with him.
Not to mention thousands pics of him in my phone gallery and also his popular pic in my social media feed or timeline.

Honestly this is too hard for me to go through.
What a wonderful beginning, even miraculously. The precious moments of us two and his sacrifice for me, now all of that has left deep trauma for me.

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Never mind.

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We keep on chatting each other as friends, but our feelings will never be the same. He also knew my fan account so we can more keep in touch with. Sometime we met up at entrance door and do some small talk.

" Hel, what's up? " He waved me and started a little conversation. I was really got pressed.

" I'm good. Thanks for asking. How 'bout you? " Then I tried to give him my best smile and attitude.

" Yeah, I'm fine. How's your work going? " Walking closer to me.

" Oh. I got promoted in my division. Also new room. " Pointing at part of my office building to show him.

" Cool. " He was very close to me.

" Well bye, you seemed busy. Got to work, I'm sorry.

But everytime he came up closer and act like really wanna talk something to me, I went inside or somewhere in purpose to avoid him. He called out my name and I replied back, just like that. I know it's kinda rude but I did it for our goodness. I don't wanna get any problem, especially from him. I'm still moving on, it feels heavy to me.

He is the one who made me rise from my adversity, from my sadness, from loneliness that I felt lately.

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He is the light in my darkest night, the star of my life.

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'You are the star of my life' <3 <3

- Posted a minute ago -

Not long after this, I gave my fan account to a friend of mine in Edgie's fandom. I wrote a confession and explanation about my long inactivity. I can't handle that fan page.

I can't take it anymore.

I don't know when I can clearly move on.

Please, I really need to move on as soon as I can. Maybe it's all about time.