Bituin

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2014

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Dugdugdug

Tumitibok na naman ang puso ko, dumaan kasi si Jonathan ang crush ko noon. At hanggang ngayon hindi ko alam kung may pagtingin pa din ba ako sa kanya.

Dugdugdug

Tumitibok siya sa iba, sa aking second bestfriend na si Kyle.

They mean everything to me.

But they put something on my heart, sana nga gayuma nalang pero it's not because it's pain, it hurt me a million times.

"Trixia!!!"

I know that voice

I know that smell

I'm sure si Jonathan ito

But I was dissapointed when I looked---

"K-kyle!"

Pero hindi yun mangyayari dahil sa ginawa ko 2 years ago....

Flashbacks

"J-jonathan me-merry c-christ-tmas" Nanginginig kung sabi

Ngayon na kasi ako magtatapat. I need to lift up my craziness over him

"Uy!Bakit ka ba nagstustutter ang weird mo ha" nagtataka niyang tanong

Ngumiti ako para matabunan ang kanyang pagtataka.

"Wa-wala to"

Mamaya ko na lang sasabihin natatakot kasi ako, pero sabi ng kaibigan ko na si Patrice. Sabihin ko na lang daw it's better to take the risk sabi nga niya.

Natapos ang Christmas Party namin picture taking doon at marami pa. It's fun.

It was my happiest day, but it all changed...

"Jonathan can we talk?" Diretso kung tanong

"Oo naman ikaw pa malakas ka sa akin eh"

Pumunta kami sa playground, dito din kasi kami naging mag bestfriend.

It still looked magnifivient though. The grass are still green, may mga swings at seesaw pa din. There's even a slide at monkey bars. Its still colorful di pa rin pinapabayaan ng maintenance, and I'm happy with that.

"Uhmmm"

Umupo muna ako sa swing

"May sasabihin ako..."

"Ano yun?"

"I...i think I'm falling for you....but i..i had this feeling that my heart is beating loudly......and proudly saying your name i think.....I'm have fallen' Inlove with you Jonathan"

Hindi siya sumagot but he smiled, and that smile make me happy, tama nga si Patrice. Its good that I've take a risk for our friendship, and for my feelings for him. Maybe we have a mutual realtionship. Maybe he also like me. But that smile, made my heart tore apart.

While he say this straight words without blinking to me.

"It's not love Trixia you just like me mawawala rin yan trust me, your just a sister to me, and its not going to be grow more or grow less"

I didn't notice that my tears fall, but I didn't manage to wipe it up. Gusto ko makita niya na nasasaktan ako. Na mahal ko siya, na hindi I to kalokohan, because I know deep inside my body. My heart is bleeding, because of him.

"Fuck this feeling Jonathan, fuck this thing called love or what so ever, but whatever you're going to say I can't change the fact that I'm deeply Inlove with you!!!!"

Umalis ako dun, iniwan ko siyang nakatulala at nakatayo.Napangiti ako ng mapakla. Good timing talaga ang langit, sinasabayan ang dalamhati ko.

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