When I See You Again (MxB)

5. Jude

Fuck, it was hard.

It was hard not to kiss him into oblivion when he was right there.

It was hard not to fuck him so hard and good when he looked up at me with those hungry eyes.

It was so fucking hard not to fall in love with him a little more when he rubbed his face on my shirt when he felt sleepy.

The cutest, the prettiest, the sexiest.

I sighed. Fey was asleep on my chest, his fist gripping my shirt and his mouth was open just a little to show me that pretty tongue.

Fuck, the things I wanted to do to that mouth.

I suppressed the groan that was building up inside me. I didn't want to wake him. There was still time before we had to go to our house for dinner, Fey could use some sleep, the dark circles around his eyes weren't sitting right with me.

I looked down at him. His beauty never ceased to take my breath away. I smiled a little at the thought. If you asked me a year or so ago, who was the one person I wanted to have sex with, I'd said some actress' name, but now, it was just Fey.

I wanted to kiss him, tease him, fuck him and make him mine. Nobody else, just mine.

I was so surprised at my possessive streak that suddenly came out into full view after him. The thought of another man touching him made me so mad, that I wanted to break things with my bare hands, but I had to control.

Just like I had to control myself around him.

I knew he wanted me. His big doe eyes didn't hide anything from me. I saw the way his pupils dilated and he threw his head back just a little to show me his neck when I was standing too close to him. The little subconscious things made it harder not to fuck him right there, but I controlled.

I wanted to show him that I wanted him. Not just his body, his everything. And I knew he still expected me to leave him someday, but I wasn't going to. I wanted to show him that not everyone wanted just sex. I wanted more from him. I wanted everything from him.

He moved in my arms a little, burying his face deeper into my side as his hands fisted my shirt tighter. He whimpered. It seemed like he was having a nightmare.

I gently shook him, and he let out a loud groan, but didn't wake up. I was alarmed when I saw little drops of tear sliding out of his eyes which were clutched tight.

"Baby? Kitten? C'mon babe, wake up." I shook him a bit harder, sitting up. He still didn't wake up, but his tears turned into painful sobs.

"Fey!" I screamed a little loud and he jerked in my arms before opening his pretty eyes - still letting out silent sobs.

Fey looked lost, as if he couldn't even remember who I was. His gaze went through me. It focused on my face a few seconds later and some more tears fell down his cheeks.

"Sky." He whispered, burying his face in my chest, and I clutched him closer to me, wanting to engulf his self into mine.

"Baby?" I asked when he didn't say anything.

"Don't you want me anymore?" He asked meekly, almost as if he didn't want me to hear it.

"Baby, look at me." I ordered and he just shook his head and buried it deeper into my chest.

I gently pushed his chin up, he didn't resist, but he also kept his gaze firmly down, not looking into my eyes. I pecked the corner of his pouty lips.

"Look at me." I softly murmured and he finally looked up. The uncertainty and pain made me want to slap myself. I'd made him feel unwanted.

"I'll always want you baby. Always. Okay?" I said, gently tucking his unruly hair behind his ear. He bit his lips.

"You're so beautiful. How could I not want you?" I whispered and his eyes became hazed. It was really hard to not devour him now, but he was still trembling slightly from the dream he had, so I tried to console him.

"What did you dream about, baby?" I asked and Fey froze in my arms.

"Nothing." He said flatly, and I felt my jaw harden.

"Lying to me, Kitten?" I said, and he whimpered at the tone.

"I'm sorry. I don't wanna talk about it. Not today." He said, looking deep into my eyes. It scared me to see them so haunted, but if he needed time, I'd give him that.

I'd give him everything he needed.

"Okay baby, we'll talk about it when you're ready. Hmm?" I said, gently stroking his back and he nodded.

"Okay." He sounded tired.

"Do you wanna sleep or watch another movie before heading out?" I asked him.

"Sleep." He murmured right before falling asleep, making me chuckle.

I carefully wrapped my arms around him so that he was comfortable. And sometime later, I fell asleep too.

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We didn't go to my parents' house together. I booked Fey an uber and then took my own car, giving him a few minutes of headstart. It was his idea, I played along. If he didn't want everyone to know anything about us, I wouldn't force him. I'd never force him to do anything.

The evening was amazing, there was music, there was laughter and there was good food. But most importantly, there was family, love, and Fey. He just kept getting deeper and deeper into my soul, and surprisingly, I didn't want it to stop.

After everything, it was quite late, so we decided to crash at my parents'place instead of coming back to the apartment. Leo and Divit went to their room to sleep, or do whatever the fuck they wanted, and I pulled Fey into my room instead of letting him sleep in the guest room. When mom raised a brow, I told her we were gonna watch a movie.

She just smiled.

"You shouldn't have done that." Fey quietly whispered when we got into my room.

"I wanna sleep with you." I said and his eyes got bigger.

"Not that, just... Sleep. I mean, that too, but not now." I said, and I could swear he pouted, but it was hard to say in the flimsy light of the bedside lamp.

I kissed his pout, not intending to go further but damn his lips were so kissable.

His arms went around my shoulders and he gave up all control of his body into my arms when my tongue invaded his mouth.

I wanted to beat my chest with my fists like a caveman for some reason...

I knew, right now, I could do anything to him. We were in the second floor, maa and baba slept in the ground floor and Leo's bedroom was in the floor below ours. Nobody would hear us. And I knew Fey won't mind the things I wanted to do to him. And Fuck, I wanted to do so many things to him, but I had to control.

I tore my mouth away from his and he pouted.

"I want birthday sex." He murmured and I chuckled.

"Kitten, you deserve so much more than just me fucking you all the time. I wanna take it slow, I wanna take us slow. I want to show you that you deserve everything. And I'd give you everything I can. Will you let me?" I asked and I saw his eyes watered.

"I don't know how." He whispered.

"Let me show you baby, give me a chance." I said and he gulped.

"Okay." He whispered again.

"Will you be my boyfriend, Fey?" I murmured into his hair while hugging him close to me.

"Yes, Sky." He whispered into my chest.

And all was well.

Short chapter, because I'm going through a filthy bout of Writer's Block.