natalie's pov
it had been about two weeks since elise's confession to me. i thought all week of what i should do. i spent most of my time alone in my room, trying to work out whether i was straight or not. i quickly gave up and tried to do things to take my mind off of the situation. i was currently doodling in my notebook when someone knocked on my door.
"come in." i said quietly.
"nat? are... are you okay? i haven't seen you much lately." brendon asked worriedly. he stood in the doorway, as if he felt like he couldn't come in.
"i'm just trying to figure something out. i didn't want to bother you with it." i replied.
"i can guarantee that i wouldn't be bothered by anything you may ask me." he reassured.
"okay, but if i tell you, do you promise not to say a word to anyone?" i asked.
"i promise." he nodded.
"well, the night we got back from tour, elise said she liked me. like, more than a friend." i explained.
"and i'm going to guess that you aren't sure if you like her back, because you thought you were straight." he said, like he had already known.
"uh, yeah, you got it pretty spot on." i replied.
"well i'm no expert on these things, but i may have an idea that could help." he said.
"one thing that might be making it hard for you is that elise is your best friend. and you probably are thinking that if this doesn't work out, you could lose your friendship with her. so maybe try thinking of her as someone else. that might help you determine whether you feel the same about her." he explained.
"that's such a good idea. thank you for helping dad." i said in awe. the way he put it made everything so much clearer to me.
"you're welcome kid. oh! while im up here, do you mind if dallon comes over? i can make sure he leaves you alone so you can think if you want me to."
"i don't mind. i actually wouldn't mind talking to him." i said.
"okay. i'll leave you alone for now. let me know when you decide?" he asked as he made his way out.
"of course."
after that i began thinking. i have always been attracted to guys, but i didn't realy think about if i liked girls. i was never opposed to the idea of dating a girl. i had kissed a girl before and i didn't hate it, but i don't think spin the bottle really counted as a proper kiss. so i thought of how i would feel being in a relationship with a girl. after a while i had a pretty good idea of how i felt, but i wasn't fully convinced.
"what's up nat?" dallon said as he entered my room. he had a tendency to not knock. although i guess if i really wanted privacy i should've shut my door.
"nothing much. just thinkin'." i said as i flopped onto my bed. dallon seated himself at the end of my bed.
"you want to talk about it?" he asked as he patted my head.
"well... sure. something happened, and it made me question... if i was straight. and i've been thinking about it for a while, and i think i know the answer, but i'm not 100% sure." i explained.
"well, what makes you unsure about it?" he asked.
"how do i know if im straight or not if i've never really experienced being in a relationship with a girl?"
"i think sometimes, people just know. but if you want to experiment to make sure, i think you should go for it. you never know if you don't try, right?" he said. he had a good point.
"okay. thanks for the help." i said with a smile.
"anytime."
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a few days later
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"hello?" elise's voice sounded from my phone.
"hey. so i thought about what you said. and i want you to know that i'm 100% sure. i like you too, and i would really love to go on a date with you sometime." i said with a smile, although she could not see it.
"really? like, really?" she exclaimed.
"really!" i said cheerfully.
"oh my god! this is amazing. thank you natalie. you have no idea how happy i am." her voice cracked.
"thank you. you helped me realize something huge and i could not be happier." i said, a few tears starting to fall.
"can i come over? i want to give you a giant hug." she said with a sniffle.
"of course you can." i said gleefully.
"okay, i'm on my way now."
a/n: power couple omg!!! don't be too happy tho bc maybe something is coming to fuck shit up...
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Fanfic*this is not edited yet so it has a lot of spelling mistakes!! also like the first 9 chapters are not the greatest, i was just really excited to write.* cover by me! natalie is 13 years old. she was born to a teen mom, who wanted what was best for h...
