september 19th, 2018
natalie's pov
i sat alone in my room. i scrolled through twitter, hoping to find something interesting to cure my boredom. that is when i found it.
"i really do love panic! at the disco but uhhh.. kenneth harris needs to be called out, so here's a thread about my experience with him"
that tweet was the scariest and most hurtful tweet i had read in my life. scary because i had been around this man for years, and he could've done so much more to me that he has with these girls online, hurtful because this was about someone i was close to, someone i had grown to love. to find out that they have done something as awful as that, it hurt.
"brendon! there is something very important you should probably look at!" i screamed as i ran down the stairs and into the kitchen.
"what, what is so important?" he asked, looking confused.
"this. this is what is so important." i said as i shoved the phone in his fave in an effort to tell him to read it.
"what the fuck,... oh my god... what the fuck?!" he said as he read the thread of tweets. what kenny had done was disgusting, and you could clearly see from the look on brendon's face. then brendon looked up to me with a look of terror on his face.
"did- did he do this t-to you too?" brendon asked in the softest voice i had ever heard from him. he looked worried, but you could see the pure anger in his eyes and you could practically see steam shooting from his ears.
i only shook my head in response. i was grateful that he hadn't, but i had also felt guilty, because it could've been just me and none of those many girls that were taken advantage of.
"no. don't you feel guilty. you are precious to me, you aren't worth nothing, so don't think that maybe it could've just been you." brendon had read my mind. he knew me better than anyone, and we took care of eachother.
a single tear fell as brendon wrapped me in a hug. i cried because someone i considered family was basically a pedophile, and because he could've hurt me. brendon cried because he had just lost one of his best friends, right after loosing dallon just a few years ago. he cried because of what could've happened to me without him even knowing, and he cried because i felt like it was my fault kenny got to all those girls.
"i need to call kenny over here so i can talk to him. is that okay? i don't want to bring him here if that will make you uncomfortable." brendon said as he pulled out of the hug. he rested his hands at my shoulders as he spoke to me, rubbing his thumbs up and down.
"yeah, it's okay. i want to talk to him too. also i want to punch him in his dumbfuck face." i said, which made brendon laugh.
"i might let you do that. i'm going to step outside and call him okay? and you cover up with a blanket or something, i don't even want him to look at you." brendon said, waving his finger at me.
"you just angered a lot of feminists, but i see your point and i will do as you say." brendon laughed again before walking outside and dialing a number into his phone.
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an hour later
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apparently brendon called the whole (touring) band over, including zack. zack already knew what was happening since he was quite active on twitter, and he was furious. we all sat at the couch, excluding brendon. nicole and zack sat on the couch with me, zack wanting to keep me away from kenny. dan sat with kenny on the loveseat, but i had a feeling he would be moving after he found out what kenny did. brendon returned to the living room with his phone after about 20 minutes of eveyone arriving.
"i know that you guys are a little confused at why i asked you to come over. i'm going to give you a breif summary of what happened about an hour ago, and i think you will all understand." kenny, dan, and nicole looked at eachother in confusion, and then shot zack and i even more looks of confusion. we both just nodded to brendon to tell them to wait and see.
"so earlier, i was sitting in the kitchen eating a sandwich when natalie comes running down the stairs and yelling, saying that i should probably take a look at what she had found because it was very important. and what she showed me was horrifying." kenny, dan, and nicole shot me a half confused and half disgusted look, as if they thought i had done something.
"what natalie showed me was a thread of tweets making some pretty heavy accusations at someone in the band." he paused to give kenny a quick look of anger before continuing.
"apparently, kenny has been talking to underage fans asking for selfies, and saying some pretty nasty shit." zack and i pulled out our phones to show dan and nicole, and brendon gave his to kenny to show him.
"would you care to explain?" brendon said as the three of them read all the stories of kenny talking to those girls.
"i-uh-i-i don't know what to say." kenny stuttered.
"so it's true?" nicole asked, now with her left arm interlocked with my right.
kenny only looked down at his hands.
"oh my god." nicole whispered.
dan scooted farther away from kenny on the loveseat.
"there is no way i can find another guitarist in time for the iheartradio show, so that will be your last show with the band. after that, i will say something on twitter that says you had to leave because of a family matter, and you will no longer be touring with us." brendon said to kenny, and the rest of us nodded.
"you disgust me. what you did was unforgivable and you fucking suck." i said as i stood up from the couch. i walked over to where he was sitting and slapped him as hard as i could across his face, and stormed to my room. i didn't want anyone to see me crying.
september 22nd, 2018
"Touring musician Kenny Harris will no longer be performing with us because of a personal matter."
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Fanfiction*this is not edited yet so it has a lot of spelling mistakes!! also like the first 9 chapters are not the greatest, i was just really excited to write.* cover by me! natalie is 13 years old. she was born to a teen mom, who wanted what was best for h...
