Little Old Me (not my Story!)

Chapter 42

ALL CREDIT TO THE ORIGINAL WRITER

"Emma let me go!", Regina yelled as both of them stood at that Counter once more. You better not fail this time, you Failure. The Voice in Emma's Head hissed as she dragged the crying Brunette more to the counter. End it. You won't make it-school and Life is too hard and now you've finally got something to end it-Help her end it as well. Don't you see how tired and exhausted she is after work? She will become just like you-depressed and numb. You did this to her-now help her end it before she has to do it herself. The Voice in her Head commanded. It felt to Emma such as that Dream she had once, she wasn't able to help or touch anybody, like she was a ghost that was just there to look at it. It felt so real but she begged it wouldn't be. She saw the Tears Running down Regina's Cheeks as she tried pushing Emma away from her, but her Grip was too tight as she dragged her closer and closer to the edge. "Emma stop! Why are you doing this! We can get over it! Please Emma! I don't wanna die!", She screamed crying. Emma tried to push her out of her Grip but it was as if her hand would just go through the soft flesh. "Don't be scared, it won't hurt." Again, Emma woke up yelling, panting and sweating in her and Regina's Bed. There sure were more nightmares lately, she couldn't really make out the Reason for them but they had always showed her her Darkest Fears. Her Killing Regina or dragging her down that way as well. Emma was very well aware that she wasn't fully cured, she was a lot better already, no harming in Months, just a few times the feeling of emptiness haunting her, but she was getting fine. Yet those all dreams wouldn't leave her alone. "Emma what's wrong? A Nightmare again? Emma? Emma you're scaring me!", Regina asked as she woke up by the Yell and tried moving closer to Emma, but she just pushed her away and slipped out of the Bed and ran into the Bathroom. She was sweating and needed a Shower, plus she couldn't even look at the Brunette without the Tears streaming down her Cheeks. Was she really ever going to be at the Point of doing that to the Brunette? Never, Emma Thought. She loved her more than her Life and tried it for her, she was getting better but the Fear Of becoming like that again still haunted her Mind. She couldn't get her screams out of her Mind again, the Sobs, The Begs that would be in every goddamn Dream Of Hers. Please Emma! I don't wanna die! It seemed as if it would replay in her Head all the time. The cold water ran down her Body but it still felt as if she would be sweating. The Tears still ran down her Cheeks and as she looked down at her Arms they were covered in blood. Her logical thinking mind told her that they ACTUALLY weren't, but it still caused panic to wash over her. She shrunk down at the Floor sobbing, hands over her Head as she pressed her eyes shut so she wouldn't see the Blood covered shower anymore. She yelped as she suddenly felt a pair of Arms around her, but then calmed down a little as she felt Regina pressing a Kiss on top of her Head before she sat down next to her as well, her Head placed on Emma's Arm. "What was the Dream about?", Regina asked softly as she began washing the Silent Blonde. Emma's Eyes slowly started to open again, she didn't know why but it felt as if Regina would wash all that blood away, even if there wasn't a slight appear of it. "I-I-I killed you....I-I'm so sorry I-I don't know why but t-this Dream, I-It's all my Fault I-I will end up hurting you or worse I-", Emma was Cut off by Regina's Lips Against Hers. The Kiss was slow and careful, when they pulled away Reginas Lips stayed close to Emma's so she could feel her breath against them while the Brunette's Body was between Emma's legs. "Emma I'm okay. I'm not hurt and you will never hurt me, okay Baby? I'm fine.", Regina said quietly before she Wrapped her Arms around Emma again and Placed her Head on her Arm again, the rather cold water was still on and ran down Their Flesh But At that Moment neither of them seemed to pay too much Attention to it. "W-What If you won't be one day? R'gina I-I cant risk loosing you, I-I can't put you in Danger by Being with me. I-I can't loose you.", Emma cried without touching the Brunette. She felt awful and couldn't help but be scared that any of her Dreams will turn true. The thought of becoming her old suicidal self made her skin crawl and shiver. "You won't loose me, Emma. I'm okay and so are we. Baby we're going to be okay and I know that you could never hurt me, Please Emma I need you to believe me that I'm okay and in no Danger at all, I love you.", Regina whispered with a small Tear escaping her eyes as well, it was hardly noticeable since the water was still running down her Body but yet you could tell. "Promise?", Emma whispered as her reddened Eyes Met Regina's Brown orbs. "Promise....Now lets get out of here and into some actual warm Bath.", Regina suggested as she got up and held her hand out for Emma to take it, which she did, before they turned off the shower and both of them got into the Bathtub while some warmer water would be filled in.