Little Old Me (not my Story!)

Chapter 22

ALL CREDIT TO THE ORIGINAL WRITER

Emma groaned as she was woken up by Neal jumping on the Bed, Days had passed and their parents were back already. Emma wouldn't have minded if they stayed away longer-shes got to spend the whole week with Regina after all, plus she's got to go down on her more than once and she still couldn't get enough of it. Regina has often mentioned what Emma would get out of it and she always Replied the same-The View, The Pleasure of seeing Regina, tasting her, being with her, touching her. Of course Emma still was a Virgin but she knew if she would loose her Virginity to someone, she wanted it to be Regina, she didn't feel any need to do it yet, but she'd do if Regina wanted to, she was open to everything because she knew Regina would know how to take care of that one. She was even a little bit proud of herself-twelve days without cutting or anything such as that. She wanted to be good for Regina; worthy even. She won't ever love you. It might be a little bit of a Romance now but she doesn't truly love you, you'll just have a relapse and then she will leave you. The Voice in Emma's Head reminded. She truly hated that Voice but she didn't know how to make it go away; she didn't know how to ignore it's words or not to believe it. She just wanted to leave all that behind and start her Life with Regina by her side. "Okay Fine im up! What is it?!", Emma asked groaning as she got up and Neal finally stopped his Attack. "Can you go and get some stuff from the Cafeteria? I'm hungry...Mom and Dad are already at work, you slept so long! I'm hungry!", He demanded and as Emma's Eyes found the clock it showed 12.03.pm. She really did sleep long! "Alright Fine. What do you want? I've got to get out anyway....", Emma Replied as she took some pieces of clothing out of her closest. "A croissant, the one with sugar actually! And hot cocoa with cinnamon!", Neal Replied And Emma Nodded once again. She could do that, she could do that and maybe later phone Regina. "A sugar Croissant, an espresso and a hot cocoa please.", Emma Said as she was at the Shop. Much people were at the Place already-probably for Lunch or something like that, Emma Thought. It didn't take long for her until the Food and drinks were done and she left again, yet she suddenly stood still as she left the Shop and her eyes found her Girlfriend some meters away at Starbucks. Which got her full Attention was not the Brunette Thought, more the Redhead that was holding her tight into her Arms, that tight that the Brunette giggled and had to get on her top toes since the other Woman was taller than her. 'She's just a friend. Regina is amazing so she surely has much friends', Emma Thought. Then the other Woman Placed a Kiss on Regina's Cheek and nose before she Wrapped her Arms around the Brunette again. Friends don't hug like that-they don't kiss each other's cheeks. It was just a matter of time until she would find someone better than you. Don't you know already? You're so easy to replace. The Voice in her Head husked and Emma listened to it before Tears ran down her Cheeks. You're so weak! You should've done that thing right a few weeks ago, but you just can't do anything right. It's no surprise that she found someone better. The Voice in Emma's Head continued before Emma quickly left. Regina clearly didn't want her...it wasn't that surprising but Emma wished she would've listened to that Voice. After Emma gave Neal the Food and drinks she found herself in the Bathroom once again with the razor blade in her hand. 'Screw it. She never wanted me, she never will. She deserves better and I can never be good enough for her, she will just end up dead like in that dream', Emma Thought as the blade Met contact with her rough skin again. She should've never dragged Regina into this, she should've listened to that Voice, she should've done one thing in her Life right, Emma Thought. She knew she wouldn't be stopping anytime soon.