It's almost seven in the evening
On a sunny, stirring Tuesday. Planes
Are constant, but unworrying, in the sky.
The lavender that's encroaching on
Our front porch steps
Boasts unruly catacombs,
Bobbing condos, where the bees
Recline on purple porches and
Unseen bugs coat the long stems
With swatches of their spit.
I'm brushing my dog in the hard grass
Which mottles my knees with red.
Rain is smiling like he's never heard
Of fear before, or of the sadness
That is known to make one's entire body hurt.
Rain is smiling like he can see
All the colors of the July day—
All the green, the purple, and the yellow—
With his simple, soulful eyes.
I rake the brush along his wiry white fur,
Almost scrubbing him like a horse.
He's stocky and young and
He got his tail bobbed in some other
Owner's care, long before admission
To the Tacoma Humane Society.
His tail wags when guests come in—
When I come in—when he sees
Cinnamon or Whisper, the cats
Who will never love him.
He wags it as well when he sees dogs,
Whom he'd bite if they got close.
He howls too, resembling a mournful Malamute,
Yet he also barks like he's apt to kill them.
He won't.
I don't know what happened or what went on
When he was a stray roaming the streets—
But he loves every person fiercely.
He's smiling now like that's the only thing
He knows how to do—is to love devotedly.
He turns his deep brown eyes on me,
Tongue out and body almost
Heaving with contentment.
And then it hits me without warning:
The fact that Rain will die.
He's around three now, but
In seven, eight years' time,
He'll just die.
I'll be out of the house, unable
To have him with me, and I'll get
My parents' call and I'll come running home.
I'll see him with a blue towel—
The one I used to muffle treats in during play—
Wrapped gently around his figure.
The body will still be sturdy when I hold it,
Even more compact now in death.
I'll stroke his limp ears that flapped like birds' wings
When he ran, and the grief he never knew about
Will wrack me terribly.
Then we'll put him under our largest bigleaf maple.
My brother, who used to sit halfway on top of Rain
And call him stupid names
Will be there too, embracing me.
And then the cats will die as well,
Not to mention our senior hens.
It's likely, too, that I'll attend
Both my parents' funerals,
And I wonder all the time whether
My best friend will die before I do,
And I think of how—if she did—
I would never eat again.
Now Rain's rubbing his muzzle up against
The fragile summer grass, sneezing.
I take him close and bury my face
In his wild wiry scruff. I really do love him.
That's a whole pain of its own.
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These Hazy Days
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