Loving someone. So many emotions come out of that one thing and all I can think to do is wonder why.
I love someone who I have no chance with. He's all around perfect and he doesn't even know I exist.
Now I get asked, how can you love someone you don't talk to? My answer is, I'm not sure. I don't even know how I came to love him, but I know that I do.
My Bestfriend is good friends with him and after she found out, she told me endless stories about him and I couldn't help but think that we were alike. She would tell me I'm like him and that we would be good together, but I sit here and cry because I know that's not possible.
His dark hair sits just the right way and his smile is the most gorgeous thing I've ever seen. I know I'm not good enough and I know I probably never will be, but I dream about it.
People don't like people like me. I don't fit in with everyone else because I don't look like them. I'm not the sporty hot guy or the skinny basic girls that surround me. No I'm different and people don't like that.
I'm told he's different and I want to believe that, but it's so hard to. Whenever people make you believe that you must look a certain way to be loved is what makes it unrealistic because everyone believes it.
I hear my friends talk about being in a relationship and saying they will never get one because they're ugly, but they aren't. And they know it. They have all talked to guys but send to many nude pictures of themselves to be asked for a real relationship.
Most of them have ugly personalities and are just complete jerks when it comes to talking to other people. I wonder how people like them and I don't have a single person even having an interest in me. It's because of how I look. And I'm reminded of it everyday.
So yes, I love someone. More then they will ever know. They will never love me back and I've come to terms with that. I'm sorry I'm not enough and I'm sorry that our society is the way it is.
People just suck and I hate that they do. They can't see the right and wrong of things. They don't know what it's like to be in my position, but why would they want to.
Loving him makes me happy, but sad all at once.
I'm tired of love.
A/N: I know this is all over the place and short, but I needed to rant because the people in my life just kind of suck right now. So yeah here you go. Take this how ever you want but I just needed to share my feelings. I tried to make it like Solby but that was harder then I thought.
