~Colby's POV~
What was I supposed to say? That what I was feeling wasn't real or that this is how people normally feel toward their Bestfriend. I know people usually don't feel this way toward their friends, but I don't know what has come over me.
We're in New Zealand for the TFIL channel and for some reason all my feelings have changed. Not toward everyone. Just Sam.
I've started to notice all the little things he does, and I love them. Maybe it's because we have been with each other 24/7 for a while or maybe because I'm just an idiot and I didn't realize it before. None of it makes sense, but one thing I do know is that I love Sam.
"Colby, come on! It's pouring and you're getting soaked." I looked up at Sam and noticed he was right. I had gotten so lost in my thoughts that I hadn't even saw that I was just standing there.
I walked to the RV and jumped in sighing as the warm air hit me. Sam had already gotten into our shared bed and I noticed that Elton and Corey weren't here.
"Where are Elton and Corey?" I asked which caused Sam to give me a confused look.
"What's up with you? They literally said they were going to walk and get food before we got in the car." I nodded and pretended like I already knew that even though I couldn't even remember that happening.
"Oh yeah. Anyway I'm going to change." I said I dressing myself. As I did so. I could feel Sam's eyes on me. Was there something wrong? Did I have something on me? I looked over at him and he turned away quickly while blushing.
"Is there something on me?" I asked him as he looked back at me. He shook his head. I furrowed my eyebrows, but shrugged to myself.
I changed and climbed into the bed with Sam, feeling myself growing more tired by the second. I got under the covers and he looked over at my curiously.
"Have you ever loved someone so much that they are the only think you think about during the day? The littlest picture makes you excited to see them again? Your whole world revolves around them and every time you're around them you can't stop smiling? You think they're perfect even when others don't see it, but to you they are like a god?" Sam sputtered like he had been holding that in for years. My mouth taped open as I tried to come up with a response.
"Yeah. I have." I said almost breathlessly. He hummed softly and looked up at the ceiling.
"And even though you know they don't love you back, you imagine being with them. You imagine holding them and kissing them. Complimenting them endlessly and never worrying about them finding someone else, even when it feels like they barely know you're there." All I could do was nod repeatedly as he spoke. He just summed up everything I've been feeling.
"Who are you talking about?" I asked. From what I remember, he hasn't talked about any girls lately.
"I don't think I can tell you that." He said as if he was unsure. I looked over at him curiously and he looked away shyly.
"Why not?" He sighed heavily and looked at me as if he would fall apart at any moment.
"You wouldn't approve." I scoffed lightly and nudged him slightly.
"Sam, I wouldn't judge you for anything. Especially for who you like." He bit his lip anxiously and kept his hands attached to the blanket that covered us.
"It's a boy." I felt my heart beat out of my chest as he said that. I don't know if that gives me any more of a chance, but it gave me more hope.
"If it makes you feel better, I also love a boy." He looked at me as if his heart had just stopped. He had a slight smile on his face, but it was gone the second it was there.
"Who is it?" He asked. I played with my fingers anxiously, but smiled nonetheless.
"I don't know if I can tell you that," I said repeating what he had said earlier. "He's too perfect for your knowledge. He's so amazing that if I told you about him, you might fall in love with him." Sam shook his head and frowned slightly. He looked away from me, but I grabbed his chin lightly and turned his face so he could face me.
"He's beautiful, loving, and the most amazing person I've ever met." I said as I stroked his cheek with the back of my hand lightly. He blushed and smiled brightly.
"His name is Sam. You may know him, but I don't think you do." He blushed profusely now and I couldn't help but smile wildly.
"I think I might. I heard he loves you too." I laughed lightly and pulled him closer by the waist with the best of my abilities since we were lying down.
"I've wanted to kiss him for a while. What should I do about that?" He pretends to think about it for a second as I grew more nervous then ever.
"I say go for it."
So I did. I pressed my lips against Sam's gently in a soft yet passionate kiss. He didn't have any hesitation and he kissed back as if he head been waiting for this longer then I knew I was.
I slipped my tongue into his mouth at it became more heated and he let out a quiet moan that was like music to my ears. We were so distracted by each other that we didn't even hear the door open.
"Please don't have sex in here." Elton yelled as he hit the bottom of the bed from the floor. Sam and I both pulled away and blushed.
"Sorry we didn't see you come in." Sam stammered quietly. Elton smiles lightly and shook his head.
"It's fine. I'm just glad you two finally saw that the other was crazy about you. I mean you guys are oblivious." I laughed and looked over at Sam and kissed him once more.
"Yeah I guess we are."
