Its All Fate.

(3) 15/3

*Levi's POV*
What? She was gonna do what? Why would she ever wanna commit suicide? She's so beautiful and humorous. "Why? Why do..? Why?" that's all what came from my mouth. I was literally out of words. I always thought that people who wanted to commit suicide would be people with terrible personalities or not so good appearances. She doesn't match any of this. She has a personality that makes her lovable and like I said before she is beautiful.
"I just don't see any purpose of living any more, the only reasons I was living for are gone now" she shrugged it off like it was a normal topic that everyone talks about daily. "Hey, hey, Sarah this is a huge deal. Why hadn't you talked to someone about it?" asked Carol worryingly.
"I had no one," replied Sarah quietly, with tears filling her blue-gray eyes

*Sarah's POV*
I wasn't going to cry again. No, I really refuse to. I quickly swallowed back the tears. They were all looking at me worried. Levi was out of words and Carol looked like she wanted to come hug me and cry together. John looked at the ground and didn't speak a word or even lift his eyes.
"You're not gonna still do it right? This was something you thought of in the past and now you're over it right?" asked Levi. Oh Levi, how I wanted to answer this saying yes, I'm over it. I'm not gonna let this terrible thought over power me. I didn't answer him though, I just looked down silently.
"Oh no no! Dude, you must be kidding! You can't do this and you know it!" said John finally.
I hated to disappoint them but I really can't help myself. I need to do it. The only way to make me happy is by ending my life.
"I-I really need to go guys. It's late and I really wanna sleep" I told them this nervously. I can't sit here anymore knowing that they know and having their eyes examine me like this.
"Okay, I'm gonna drive her to her house guys, see y'all!" said Levi standing up. We said our goodbyes and walked to the car silently.
"You are not gonna do it," he said as soon as we entered the car. I didn't understand, was this an order or a question or what?
"I need to, Levi. I'm really sorry," I told him looking through the window, I can't look at him now.
"No, no you don't! You have us now, Me, Carol and John. We are your family now. Please Sarah don't do this to me, to us," he was pleading this to me and it was seriously killing me to see him like that. I didn't answer. I couldn't, I didn't have anything to say to make him satisfied. My decision wouldn't satisfy him, it was obvious.

*Levi's POV*
I can't believe this. And she lives alone too! She can do it and no one would know until its very very late. I need to stop this. I can't let this happen. I can't let her go.
"Hey, what about you come and we have a sleepover at my house?" I don't know why I said this out of every single word in the english dictionary but that just happened.
"What?" she asked, snickering.
"Come on, it's gonna be so much fun and we can also pull an all nighter!" I sound so childish but I don't care.
"Levi, I really don't want. I'm sorry," she said this still not looking at me.
"Please don't do anything to yourself," I pleaded from her, "I want you here" I said as I parked in front of her house.
She nodded.

*Sarah's POV*
"I want you here"
It kept repeating through my mind all night that I barely got any sleep.
What could he possibly mean? We just met yesterday. And in college if that's even included.
He couldn't possibly still be in love with me right?
Why am I even thinking about this? He's an old friend who I lost touch with and we are now just making up for the lost time.
But why did he ask me to come over at his place. Was he afraid that I'm gonna do something to myself?
I mean he really should be scared cause I really am going to do this, it's just that I don't have time.
Maybe I should just set a date where I can free myself from everything on this day and just let it be me killing myself.
I checked my Calendar and set to myself a due date, literally. On 15/3 I'm gonna kill myself and that is settled. That is a whole 2 months from now so by then I should've freed myself from all the thoughts and just became ready.
I picked up coffee and went to the grocery to grab some essentials for me to "live". Ironic? Hell yes. I went home and was putting everything in cabinets when I received a phone call from Carol.

Carol: Hey girl
Sarah: Hi, How are you?
Carol: Fine but could use my monthly doze of shopping now.
Sarah: Cool
Carol: That meant I'm gonna pick you up right now and go shopping so get ready idiot and tell me your address as well.
Sarah: Okay, okay. I'll text you it.

I hung up and sent her a text. I went and surfed through the hell that I call a wardrobe. I decided to stay simple so I wore ripped jeans, black tank top and a mustard jacket. I slipped on black shoes and a black purse and was ready to go.
A while later, Carol came , picked me up and off we went to the mall. I bought a lot of stuff and I actually didn't expect this. I never really liked shopping alone so whenever I went alone I always came back with about 1 bag with jeans and a tee and that was it. This was actually the first time for me to buy a lot of things and things I don't even believe I could pull them off in just one trip! I really needed a Carol in my life.
We ate lunch before we left and that also was pretty fun. She told me how that her and John's relationship started as enemies. They were classmates in high school and then college and they despised each other. Only a friend of Levi introduced them to each other and to Levi and they all became friends for a while until their friend emigrated and they kinda lost touch. I told her all about my relationship with Howard and how I ended it when I realized he was hitting on Rose, my sister. We also talked about how I never really had a girl best friend other than Rose and now Carol. I was pretty thrilled to actually hang out with someone other than Rose.
I was always an introvert and Rose would spend all day to convince me to get out and go watch a movie or shop or whatever. I just didn't see the reason to go out when we could spend the whole day together inside our home wearing pjs and watch a movie in front of our TV and sleep on the couch together. No need to wear uncomfortable clothes to go to a room filled with people theatre.
"Hey, tomorrow we're going to a club you know, its the weekend. Would you like to come?" asked Carol
"Yes, why not? As if if I had said no you would've left me alone" I replied sarcastically but also meaning every word.
"Okay then, we'll all meet at our place okay so don't be late and if you need any help call me girl," she told me as I hopped off the car.
I really am enjoying their company.
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The image above is the outfit Sarah wore.
The girl isn't who I imagine Sarah as, I'm not gonna put a specific picture for Sarah as I'd luck you all to imagine her as who do you see is suitable for her and every single character.
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