Its All Fate.

(9) Will you marry me?

*Sarah's POV*
The room was filled with balloons all over the place. Every balloon had a paper inside. They were all various colors but mostly all of my favorite colors. As I walked in amazement as if I was walking through the clouds, I found a huge teddy bear sitting on the couch with flowers beside it. It was holding a note it said; 'you complete me.' I smiled as I knew who this was from. It was the sentence that Levi always says to me if I need anyone to comfort me. I took the flowers in hand and noticed that there was also a note; 'We wouldn't have had our group any other way.' This was from Carol and John. I smiled but then I heard a camera flashing behind me. I looked back to see Levi sitting on one knee.

*Levi's POV*
"I know I did this before. A couple months ago when I did this, I pictured this day. I thought we'd be in one of our favorite places and I'd put the ring inside a teddy bear so that you wouldn't even think about it. Things change and so do perspectives and I'm now the happiest man and it's all because of you. Sarah, you complete me. I know I said this a million times before and I will always say it till the last breathe. I've never been so in love and although we are in a difficult situation right now but that won't stop me from asking you; Will you marry me?" by the time I finished my speech basically everyone was in tears, me, Sarah, Carol and even John. I was holding the ring in one hand and a small teddy bear in another. John was capturing pictures every now and then and we were now basically waiting for Sarah to say yes.
"No, Levi. I won't marry you," she said smiling.
My heart was in pieces. Why would she reject me? Didn't she love me? I mean, she's my girlfriend. Was it too soon to be proposing? Why would she hurt me like that?

*Sarah's POV*
Everyone was looking at me like I'm a mad woman now. I partially am in a way, to reject such a handsome man who I'm madly in love with.
"I won't marry you because I won't handle hurting you when I leave. In fact, if it were up to me, I would've broken up with you as soon as I'd known but I couldn't bring myself to do it. Levi I love you, I know I don't say it a lot but I'm deeply in love with you," I took a deep breath then continued, "And because I love you, I care about you. I don't want you to get too attached to me and me accepting your proposal will just be like me tying myself to you. I don't want you to be lost when I die just like how I was when Rose did. I was too attached to Rose that's why I don't want you too as well."
I took at Carol and John then continued, "You guys as well. You deserve all happiness and you didn't deserve to have an overly sick and dying friend. I'm sorry for all the pain I've cause all of you. I love you," I said in between sobs then went to my room.
I cried and cried all day until I felt like I couldn't see straight anymore. Although I know that what I did was best for them and they shouldn't be sad now but I'm still hurt. I don't believe how unfair the world can be. When I finally find myself and start to be happy, its like "no you cannot be happy, death you deserve".
Before I even realise it, I fell asleep lost in my own thoughts and drowned in my own tears.

*Levi's POV*
I slept on the couch that day. I was devastated. At first, I was a bit angry. I thought that she was acting so selfish on her part but to be frank with you, after thinking deep about the whole situation she has a point. I love her in any way shape and form, but it is going to be easier like that.
I grabbed a cake on my way home and we feasted on it.
"I hope you're not mad at me," she muttered quietly.
"I can't be mad at you and you know it," I smiled planting my face in her neck.
She looked beautiful today. It was like she was glowing and her hair was flowing and looked lighter in a way although she didn't even do anything to it.
"Levi I don't want you to get too attached to me. Just try please, even if that means that you'll distance yourself from me. I can't be the reason of your hurting-" I stopped her mid sentence, "Sarah, you're vomiting words right now. I can't leave you alone through this. Even if I wanted to, and I don't want to I just can't!" I said trying hard to hold my tears in.
We stayed silent for a while. Both thinking about what we just said. I know what i'm doing is right, I need her way more than she needs me. How can she ask me to leave her? I know she's afraid I won't handle it well after she passes but what she doesn't know is that i'm still hoping. I'm hanging on this tiny piece of thread called hope. I pray everyday that a miracle happen that will stop the tragic ending from happening. I pray everyday that I wake up from this terrible nightmare on the chirping sound of Sarah telling me that breakfast is ready. And although we are now in a very difficult and heart breaking situation threatening to be even worse, I wouldn't change it under any circumstances. This whole thing just brought us together and closer even though our timing with each other wasn't a lot but it's everything I've ever wished for.

*Sarah's POV*
I finally finished what I was doing since I knew I had cancer today while Levi was at work. I don't know how they will react to it when they receive it. I doubt that they have any idea about it at all. Tomorrow when Levi goes to work, I'll go to the post office and tell them to send it off to them at the beginning of May. I'll give them quite a bit of time to grieve. Oh god, I'll miss them so much but at least i'll be there, always.
I realized how weird it was to talk about myself as if i'd already died. And although I didn't die yet, I know I will soon.

The rest of the night we had a movie night. Carol and John even joined us. We didn't watch only 1 movie, we had a movie marathon. Carol and John ended up staying the night at our place when Carol fell asleep on the couch.
My mind drifted to our first slumber party when all I was thinking about was that I need to get home to just commit suicide. I was too embarrassed and sad to feel completely free. Yeah, I had the greatest time of my life and at the end they pulled me out of my whole grieving situation.
I looked beside me as the last episode of friends season 10 ended and found that Levi was about to fall asleep.
"Hey babe," I called quietly afraid to wake up Carol and John who was now asleep on the floor.
"Mmm?" he mumbled back opening one eye to look at me.
"I love you, always and forever," I said as he smiled and fell into deep, deep sleep.
I shut the TV closed and fell asleep as well.
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