Its All Fate.

(12) The mail box.

[A month later]
*Levi's POV*
Its been a month now.
The last time I've seen her was a month ago now.
I'm better now.
I've accepted the fact that she's feeling better now, that she's happy.
Some days its pretty hard for me to stop the tears from running down on my cheeks.
And others I'm good.
Today, I am in an excellent mood. I even feel productive.
I decided to go hunt for jobs as I resigned from my last job when Sarah got sick. I couldn't stand to be away from her.
When I went out, I felt like I've been reborn. Its like I've never seen this part of the world before.
I start first with of course some teaching jobs since that's all what I've experienced at you can say. I also apply in some translating and editor jobs and hope for the best.
I decided to go to the diner before I go home to grab a bite.
The nearest diner to me was the place where me and Sarah sat at before she knew she had cancer.
Hurt dives face first into my heart but I push it away.
I don't want to be teary and gloomy all day. I need to be better, for Sarah.

When I go home, I noticed that there was a box on the outside porch.
I grabbed it and I immediately knew who it is from.
Sarah.

I quickly rush into my home and tear the wrapping up.
At the top of the box there was a paper with a 'To my lovey'. My heart flutters as I read it.
I opened the box to find a lot of letters with a paper on top of them all.
I grab the paper and start reading it:

My dearest Levi,
I miss you lots.
I know you do too.
I want you to know that you're the greatest blessing I have ever received.
Thank you for saving my life and for being in it.
These letters are numbered by months.
Starting by May until the next May.
Please don't open through them and just open each one on the first day of the month written on it.
If you love me, you'll do what's written in the letters.
I love you, always and forever.
Sarah xx.

I finished reading the letter feeling happy yet curious. What could this letter include?
Tomorrow is the first of May so I guess I could wait just one more day.

I was watching TV for a bit holding the box close to my chest when my phone started to ring.
At first, I ignored it as I couldn't be bothered by some "I'm sorry for your loss" or "Damn, that must suck".
Then it began ringing again and again and again so I picked it up.
"We're coming over now," said John very quickly and hung up.
What the hell? I wore my clothes as I looked absolutely awful with my old 'jammies.
Just minutes later, surely Carol and John were standing at my doorway.

"What's up?" I asked wondering.
"You got it!" yelled Carol pointing at the box sitting on the couch where I was hugging it.
"Y'all knew about it and didn't tell me!" I said surprised. These bastards.
"No idiot we didn't know about it, we've got one as well," said John.
Wait, what?
Although I did feel at first that like this was something special because I'm her boyfriend and so and so but now I am happy to know that I have the two closest people to my heart after Sarah of course, that I can share with what I will get in these letters.
"I can't believe that through all her pain and suffering all she thought about was us!" said Carol her eyes watering a little.
"I know," I replied pulling her into a tight hug, John joining us not so long after.

We stay in at my place that night, sitting and watching Friends in honor of Sarah and the whole time, I was just imagining her right there in my arms and cuddling just like how Carol and John were doing.

"Hey Levi, do you think you're life would've been better if you hadn't known Sarah at all?" asked John after a lot of time sitting in utter silence.
"No of course not," or so do I think?
Would it have been better? I mean I would've been a bit sad when I know that my old roommate have died but I wouldn't be that hurt and upset.
But Sarah, she brought meaning to my life. She was my life. She's still my life. She was an angel sent to me to remind me to always count my blessings and thank god that he sent me such a beautiful, special one.
Before her, yeah sure I never thought that by the age of 25 I would be grieving over my dead girlfriend who happens to be my college roommate.
Everyone would've expected me by the age of 25, to be in an like on and off relationship and to not know where my future is gonna be. Yet, I happened to be with the one I wanted to complete my life with. Fate just had other plans.

I go to bed at 12:30 that day after finishing about 6 episodes of Friends and just chit chatting for a bit with Carol and John.
Tomorrow I'll wake up and I'll be reading a message from my girlfriend, my dead girlfriend.
Sure as hell, I'm super excited and can't wait to see what Sarah has in mind for me to do but also I'm nervous, no one knows what's inside of these letters except for Sarah herself.
I drift off to sleep thinking about what that letter might contain.

[The next day]
I wake up feeling a bit out of mood until I remember that I have a meeting with Sarah.
I quickly jump off the bed and go downstairs to the kitchen counter, where lays the box still begging me to open it and see what's inside of
these letters.
I quickly open the box to see the first letter staring at me.

May.
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