~2 months ago~
Me and Colson were cuddling on the couch watching a movie on Netflix. His phone lit up with a text message but I couldn't see from who. He picked his phone up and unlocked it. He started texting the person back. I went back to watching the movie. Half way through the movie Colson got up and grabbed his phone. I paused the movie.
"Where are you going?"
"Out with some friends."
"But we are watching a movie together."
"You can continue watching the movie. We can watch another one when I get home." I looked at him and then back at the movie. I sighed.
"Fine Colson. Go hang out with the boys since they are more important than me." I sat back on the couch and crossed my arms. I turned the movie back on. Colson stood in front of the tv.
"Colson can you move."
"No not until you stop acting like that."
I paused the movie. I sat there with my arms crossed and just looking at him. He squatted down and put his hand on my thigh.
"Y/N I promise I won't be out long and we can finish the movie when I get home. My boys aren't more important than you. Baby I love you more than life itself."
"Well you always are with them and you barely spend time with me."
I got off the couch and walked into the kitchen. Colson followed me. I leaned against the counter. Colson walked up and hugged me. I couldn't resist so I hugged him back. He kissed my head.
"Baby you're everything to me and nothing could change that."
"Really?" I smiled.
"Yea." He smiled and kissed me. I kissed back. Colson left and I went back to the living room and sat on the couch and watched Grey's Anatomy until Colson comes home. It was getting late and I was tired so I fell asleep on the couch. The next morning Colson never came home. It didn't bother me because it happens all the time. I sat at the kitchen table remembering what Colson said last night.
"Baby you're everything to me and nothing could change that."
~2 months ago~
Colson was wrong. Something did change that. Colson started becoming distant. He kept lashing out on everyone. He kept cheating but I couldn't leave him because I loved him very much. He was going out every night. I kept seeing him on the news with different girls but I couldn't bring it up because it still hurts. Colson went out last night. I woke up and he wasn't home.
"Just like always."
I got out of bed and went downstairs to the kitchen. I made me a cup of coffee and I sat at the table. I was scrolling through my phone when I heard tmz on the tv. I got up and went into the living room. I turned the tv up and the article was about Colson making out with a mystery brunette last night. I sat on the couch and set my coffee on the table. I put my head in my hands and started crying. I can't do it anymore. This is the last straw. I went upstairs to our shared room and start packing my things. I finished packing and I got dressed into my ripped jeans and my hoodie and my black combat boots.
I heard the front door open and close. It was probably Colson. I was grabbing my toiletries and my hair stuff when Colson walked into the room.
"Where are you going?"
"I'm leaving."
"Why?"
"You know why Colson."
He looked at me. I grabbed my bags and walked downstairs while Colson followed me. We argued all the way down the stairs.
"Colson you fucking cheated on me. You have been cheating on me for months and I let you because I fucking loved you so much. I dealt with you're lashing out and distancing yourself because when you love someone you do that! I can't take it anymore Colson! I can't! I can't keep letting you hurt me because you can't fucking figure out if you love me or not!" I yelled with tears running down my face. He looked at me and didn't say anything.
"Colson I'm tired of being nothing to you. You treat me like I'm nothing to you. Colson I love you but I can't kept letting you hurt me anymore."
"Y/N I..."
"Colson look at me in my my eyes and tell me I mean everything to you or tell me I at least mean something to you."
He just looked at me and didn't say anything.
"You can't can you?" I felt tears form in my eyes. He just looked down at the floor.
"I knew it Colson. I knew you couldn't tell me I mean everything to you or at least something to you. I knew I meant nothing to you. When you figure out if I mean something to you call me or text me but for right now I can't keep letting you hurt me while you figure out what you want." I wiped my tears and grabbed my bags. I was about to walk out the door when I stopped. I turned around and I took the necklace off that Colson gave me and handed it to him. He wouldn't take it.
"Keep it Y/N. I bought it for you so it's yours."
I put it in my pocket and set my house key on the table by the door. I opened the door and walked out. I set my bags in my car and got in. I couldn't help it so I started sobbing. I sobbed in my car for some hours. I started the car and pulled out his driveway. I headed back to my house. I pulled into my driveway and cut my car off. I got out and grabbed my bags. I walked to my door and unlocked it. I walked in the house and shut the door. I heard little paws running across the wooden floor. My dog Peyton came running to me.
"Hey Peyton baby."
I petted him and I set my bags down by the door. I looked at my table and seen a lot of mail on the table. I grabbed it and looked through it. I seen a letter from my friend who is in jail for killing his bestfriend. I opened the letter and read it. I started to tear up. I got out a paper and pen and wrote him back. I put it in my mailbox and went back inside. I sat on the couch and Peyton cuddled next to me. I turned on the tv and turned a movie on. I watched the movie I didn't get to finish with Colson. I looked at my phone and Colson never texted or called. I knew I meant nothing to him. It just shows it took me leaving for him to admit I mean nothing to him.
