Vulnerable

Twelve- Rye

He forgave me. I do not deserve the forgiveness, l looked down at my wrists. But he gave me it. Andy seemed to notice my slight change in gaze and put his hands over my wrists knowingly.  I found it sad he was able to notice, while a little taken back, I was grateful that I would not have to have that conversation with him.

"Not anymore," He said. I didn't know how he knew, I guess he just understands my guilt. How could I ever have turned on someone so gentle and so pure? He looked up at me and the nurse walked in.

"Boys a Mrs. Beaumont is here to take you now" she interrupted gently. I slowly let go of his hands and walked out, stiffly to meet my mother.

"Thank you, mum, so much," I told her, she simply told me that it is okay and I led her through to the room where Andy was being helped up by another nurse. I saw him wobble a bit, getting used to the new position before steadying and catching my eye. I gazed lovingly at him and immediately rushed over to hold his shoulder as he began to walk out of the room.

My mother helped him get into the car and I slid into the passenger seat as she got in the front. My house was at least a 20-minute drive from the hospital and soon I heard the gentle breaths of a sleeping Andy in the back of the car. As soon as he had fallen asleep my mother turned to me.

"He is the reason you wanted to know if we were okay with someone being gay, isn't he?" She stated more than questioned, I was a little shaken by how fast she realized and I nodded.

"I'm worried what would happen if dad was to find out though mum, he cannot know!" I told her. The immediate fear of what would happen if he found out surged up through me. But no matter what I knew I would have Andy. I pulled out my phone and decided to message the boys.

me- Guys, you know what I was sort of telling you about before, ya know Andy. Well I do really like him and I want you to know that next time Sonny is told to go for him, I am going to stand up for him.

Mikey- Bro, I'm with you till' the end of the line x

Jack- Yeah, me too Bro x

Me- Thanks, guys. Means a lot!

Jack- Also FYI there's going to be a new kid coming in on Monday. Wyatt, I think someone said. Apparently, he was picked on in his last school. I think I am going to try to know him. keep him out of the bullies claws and all.

Mikey- look forward to meeting him! and Andy... properly.

Me- awesome, I'll see you guys on Monday!

I turned around to look at the sleeping boy in the back seat. I felt nothing but the urge to protect him at all costs. at least he was safe from his dad now. He would never be hurt by him again. with my protection in school, he would be safe there as well. Maybe if Sonny sees us all band together, he will turn against Harvey and be free. Before High school, he used to be so sweet. I hoped that this can act as a crossroads in everyone's lives. I hoped that people would make the right decision.

Before I knew it we had arrived back at my house. As the car jolted to halt on our driveway I heard Andy stir in the back of the car. I immediately rushed around and helped him to get out of the car, I knew we both looked like absolute messes, but I didn't care anymore. I  just wanted to be with him, alone. Away from the fear of how my father would react and away from whatever fears he still held in his heart deep down.

I wrapped my arm around his shoulder and helped to bring him up the stairs, luckily we have a very wide staircase so I didn't have to let him go at any point of the way. Slowly we made our way up to my room where we both just sat on my bed, exhausted from the excursion. He lay down and looked up at the ceiling of my room. He seemed to be lost in a world of his own, I had a very faint idea of what he was thinking about, but I knew not to intrude. Instead, I gazed at the boy on my bed. He hadn't been in my room since we were kids. Since before his Mum, yet this just seemed right, correct. Like a little void in my room I was unaware existed, had been filled. Now it all just felt complete.

"you have a lovely family Rye, thank you for taking me in and looking after me," he said, quietly after a while. I looked at him and smiled and, for the first time in two years, he smiled back. It was the most heartwarming thing I have seen, his whole face was lit up and I could feel myself grinning like an utter idiot back at him. His cheeks blushed a little under my gaze and that just made me want to look at him even more. I could see the colour continue to rise through the bruises on his cheeks, I could see the pain in his smile but I knew it was a part of him. Just as the pain mirrored in my smile would never leave. Together, the pain appeared lessened, he was like the antidote to all my pains and ails.

When we finally broke the gaze I realised how sweet he looked on my bed, curled into the blanket. I felt my eyes drift to his lips, I wanted to kiss him so badly. To show to him how deep my love was for him, how I really meant what I said. I moved my eyes away from his lips and he locked eyes with me, he saw me looking. I felt a light blush rush through my cheeks and then saw the same happen on his cheeks too. Gosh, I couldn't stop blushing around him. Yet my desire for him only increased. In that moment I blocked out all the consequences and ignored the fact we were both injured. The fact my family were home, and my ribs felt sore. I fell into a separate universe, I fell into those blue eyes I had fallen in love with.

As I leaned down he knelt up, we knew what we were about to do would change everything. I wanted it to. We gravitated towards each other, perfectly in sync, like magnets, drawn together.  But before I could taste him, wrap myself around him and lock my lips around his, I heard my room door open.

"WHAT THE HELL..."

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hello, my beautiful people, The update was late today, sorry. In my defence, I have been on a plane all day. So I am here with another chapter my lovelies. let me know, thoughts or predictions or panic at that cliffhanger heh heh.

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