me casually trying to make friends

me panicking for 2 hours straight

remember when i mentioned, that i will fly to spain..

yeah well im currently sitting at the airport waiting for the gates to open and im STRESSED
im literally HAVING A MENTAL BREAKDOWN

im just trying to eat my lil blue berry muffin while there is the voice of a woman YELLING every 3 minutes the same **** through the loudspeaker
im-

i just wanna eat ma muffin maaan

anyway im not even sure if im at the right gate lol
if i wont update ill probably be dead or sth, coz that will most likely happen

im sad rn
i mean what if i really die

if so what will happen to ma muffin :C

ok so since there is the possibility that i will not survive the flight imma leave some words here

well i wouldnt say that my life has been a bless (lol)
but i met some people who deserve to be mentioned here

my elementary teachers; i truly hate you, always have always will
my middle school teachers; i truly hate you, always have always will
my high school teachers; i actually kinda liked you all, exept you mr p. WTF my essay was a masterpiece and deserved sth way better then a D, pfffff

my parents; there were some moments where i considered to NOT give you sth for christmas.. i hope that says enough
my lil brother; you may be just eleven, but even tho you are one of the most mature human beings ive ever met, so yeah i love you

i dont really have people who i would call friends, but there are some i met during my 16 years of so called 'life' that had me laughing and smiling (at least a bit).
so to everyone who ever made me feel happy even if it was just for a second; thank you!

and to you, whoever you might be; WHAT YA DOING??  just add ma book to ur library
ok no jk

i hope that one day you will look back at ur life and think ''i would always do it again''
LIKE DONT REGRET ur decisions

or wait
no do it
but dont keep thinking about ur decisions
like what if i didnt pick up that one gum of the ground of ma school hallway and ate it??
you know? just be happy that you saved yourself 20 pens

get it?
anywayyyyy
just never forget to LOVE YOURSELF

(2 months older me: yo why was i so weird :D )

thats it
that may will be my last words
bye fellow human antis may you all have a long lasting and beautiful life

-dont die
*eats her muffin*