Protect her. (Adora fic)

Bug Brain

Episode 1
Part 4

🚨🚨☢️☢️CAUTION: THIS CHAPTER COULD TRIGGER READERS THROUGH MENTIONS OF DEPRESSION, GUILT, SELF-DOUBT, AND DEATH. CONTINUE READING WITH CAUTION AS THIS IS A WARNING. THANK YOU AND PLEASE BE SAFE☢️☢️🚨🚨

(using ⁉️ when the panic attack starts/ends)

I soon calmed down enough where I could try to identify who was helping me. My hands travels up their arms to their wrists, and once I felt rope, I open my eyes wide to see a beautiful steel blue I admire so much.

I jumped back, releasing her from my grasp, yelping as my back crashed on the forest floor. "Woah! Are you okay?"

Her voice calmed me down again as I panted. I looked around me to see Bow standing behind blondie, worried. I was still in the Whispering Woods. I was shaken up by how much I cried today. I internally groaned. "Yeah. I'm... I'm fine."

We heard whimpering and Bow pulled us up and we raced over to find Glimmer. We found her, and a destroyed village. I shrink back, but Bow grabs me and puts me in front of him. I whimper quietly and try to hold back more tears. Glimmer picks up a broken shard that was left behind.

Blondie asked the question, "What happened to this place?"

Glimmer grew mad, and I tried to scoot away from this place.

"Don't play dumb with me. I bet you were part of the raiding party that did this." She goes to point at blondie and Bow grabs her arms to keep her there, letting me go.

At this point the attention isn't on me. I sneak past all three of them and head away from the destroyed city. "What are you talking about? The Horde didn't do this."

Glimmer grabs blondie by her restraints and leads her into the damage. She looks back and see my panicked eyes and tries to call out for me, "Hey-"

"Pay attention, spy." She was lead away from me, her eyes worried and filled with desperation to help me. I shook my head at her, and walked off.

I wrapped my arms around myself and sat on a stump once I was far enough away from Glimmer's angry ranting about the Horde.

⁉️panic attack starts⁉️

I held back tears as I knew exactly what happened to that city. Because I was the one that ordered it. I was the one who planned it, all of it! Of course I never told Glimmer or Bow, but the guilt of me being the reason Glimmer was so mad about the Horde, tore me down. The stone walls that took me so long to build, broke down just like that. Ripped apart like paper. Unable to be rebuilt as it once was before.

I heard yelling as panic was slowly crawling up my spine. "Hey-! Get back here!"

I looked up to see the Blondie running towards me, Glimmer and Bow far behind her. The panic stopped as I jumped in my skin.

⁉️panic attack ends⁉️

Blondie ran too hard and couldn't stop in time before reaching me, so we crashed into the cold grass, her legs slightly straddling my hips. I groaned as our heads bumped into each other. She sat up, her tied hands on my stomach, as she asked the big question, "Are you okay?"

"I was but with you sitting on me is making me uncomfortable." I looked to my left, avoiding her gaze and trying to hide the blood running across my face. Blondie looks flustered and stands up, holding out her hands to help me up. I gladly took it, feeling how soft with a slight roughness her hands are, and dusted off my clothes once I was upright again. "Why did you stay back? Is something wrong?"

"I'm fine, blondie. I just needed a quick break. Thanks for asking, though." I put my eyes everywhere but on her as I walked away, straightening my clothes from being tackled.