Red Rose

Pretty Colors

   The red blazing ambulance sirens, shined across my face repeatedly. The scenery of the previous incident played over in my mind rewinding and forwarding, could this have been possible to have another incident here on Middleton campus?. My heart began to race and my breathing became shorter. Silence filled the car as we watched the horrid expressions of the ambulance team doing whatever they could to save this persons life.

   I felt everything becoming numb again, and i couldn't explain this creeping feeling that i have been getting ever since Tommy's death to anyone. I could feel the fear rising up in my body, and tried my hardest to hide it or put it away. I knew i had to be strong especially for my friends, and right now for Jenn.

   I could feel the fear emanating from her body like the heat from a fireplace. I couldn't loose her like I had lost my self at Tommy's crime scene. If Jenn hadn't been there with me i feel that i would have completely disconnected standing there empty and lost as a police officer shouted at me. I turned to look at her and felt tears running down my face. I didn't know I was crying until now. The tears began to spill from my eyes like waterfalls as Jenn took hold of my hand. She was trembling.

   I turned back to the steering wheel placing both my hands at the top. Laying my head on my fists I tried to gather my thoughts, calm myself down, trying not to loose myself...again. But it didn't work. It felt like I was being pulled between reality and my mind. Nothing was coming together, I couldn't make sense of anything anymore.

   Then my back pocket started to vibrate. Great as i'm here trying to hold myself together, what could be better than getting another distraction? I pulled out my phone slowly and quietly to see that it was Justin. A wave of relief somehow found it's way over my body as I stared at his name on the phone. I answered it and when I heard his voice I almost felt my heart leap out my chest.

'Hello, Anna?' I stayed quiet as I listened to his smooth voice. It was as if I had a piece of home with me through this hectic situation. He repeated my name questionably as I took a breath trying my very hardest to sound like there was nothing wrong, to sound like there wasn't a murderer on the loose on Middleton campus, to sound like two people hadn't already been victims of this bloodthirsty killer... to sound like i wasn't already loosing my mind. But could I pull it off? What if Justin already knew about the situation, and he was calling in to see if I was okay?

'Helloooooooo Annnnaaaaa!' He repeated almost impatiently.

'Babe?' I finally spoke shaking myself from the deep of my mind, oh how i hoped i wouldn't sound crazy to him.

'Anna! There you are. I was beginning to think that maybe our connection was lost or something. Did you drop your phone?'

'Um yeah, that's what happened...I dropped my phone...on the um car floor.' I soon became angry with myself at how shaky and unstable my voice sounded right now. I should have pulled away from the crime scene when the phone rang, but i was so into my thoughts that i couldn't even think of driving. Now as i'm talking to Justin i can see the investigators covering up the lifeless and bloody body on the ground...but not without catching the glimpse of a red rose in her hand.

   I thought I was going to be sick. I still heard Justin talking as i dropped my phone and jumped out of the car running a little aways and puking on the side of the road. Not again, not again could this killer be getting away with this, with not one even having a single clue on who it could be. The world seemed to stop moving underneath my feet as i sat on the cool pavement taking the nauseousness from my body. I continued to sit there quietly.

   I heard footsteps walk up to me and take a seat on the pavement beside me. I looked up to see a puffy and red eyed Jenn looking back at me, trying her hardest not to fall apart in front of me. A hint of hope escaped from her sad eyes and she laid a warm hard on my shivering and shaking body. It wasn't me, no not me that had to be strong for her friends. It was my friend Jenn who had to be strong for me because she could see how much this affected me or did she?