Fading Angels [SPN Fanfic]

Friendly Talks

I yawned as I watched Liam sleep. He was a fairly peaceful baby. I hummed a song but jumped up and ran to the bathroom to get sick. For the past month I had been getting sick and I had a terrible suspicion of why. I cleaned myself up so that I looked cute and presentable before picking up Liam and walking out the door.

I had decided to drive because I wanted to create the closest to a normal life I could give Liam. I turned into the pharmacy parking lot and unbuckled Liam from the booster seat. The pharmacy was quiet and I had no trouble finding what I needed. I grabbed diapers as well and walked up to the register. I was glad to purchase my items and run off without comment from the clerk.

The car ride back was more nerve-racking. I pulled into the scrap yard and rushed into the house with Liam. I put Liam in his crib after changing him and rushed to the bathroom to take the test.

I hummed a song as I put Liam to bed. Arms circled my waist but I didn't turn around this time. I sighed.

"Cass, do you only show up at night? I think we should wait a bit. I think I had a close call earlier. I think it is too soon to have a baby again just yet."

The hands did not move and something felt wrong. I spun around and stared up into a familiar yet unexpected face.

"Hey Sugar. So you are one for the PG18 stuff. Who would have guessed?" Balthazar gave me a sly smile as he leaned on Liam's crib. "I've got to say that he take's on his father's genes. Handsome boy."

I crossed my arms and gave Balthazar a pointed look. He had taken my case and had barely informed me of any updates. I did enjoy his company and gave up on the annoyed look and smiled.

"How ya doing?"

"Oh I'm good. Just taking a break from the case. Nothing has changed. Angels are still disappearing and so on. Anyways how are you, Castiel, junior and junior two?"

"Junior two?"

"Well that's what the test in the bathroom says. Positive for another junior."

I pushed past Balthazar and ran into the bathroom. I looked at the test. I felt my stomach churn as I leaned against the wall and sunk to the floor with my head on my knees. I felt Balthazar sit down beside me and pull me into a hug. I felt a hot tear spring from my eye.

"What's wrong?"

"I don't know. It's just I wasn't ready for another kid. I am kind of scared. Castiel hasn't been around much and I feel so much pressure. It seems I have grown up so much lately. I never really had a childhood and now I'm a mother."

Balthazar squeezed my shoulder and I continued to rant until all I could say before falling asleep was:

"He hasn't even proposed."

I woke up with my head still on Balthazar's shoulder. I yawned and rubbed my eyes. I looked past Balthazar to the garbage where the test was hidden. It was positive. I was pregnant.

Again.

"I'm not going to tell him this time."

I envisioned a tub of icecream and began to eat it with only a bit dripping on Balthazar. I sighed and put the tub down. Icecream wasn't going to help.

Now don't get me wrong. Icecream helps a lot of things, but this wasn't one of them. Add that to my list.

1. Fatal injuries 2. Apocalypse and Sam saying yes to Lucifer 3. Being pregnant with an angel's kid for the second time and you're not even married.

Joy.

Liam started to cry so I rushed to his crib. I soon solved the problem and was cradling him in my arms. His hair was growing in slowly but would obviously be black like his father's. Although his eyes had remained a rich dark brown like my own. I hummed to Liam as I shuffled around Bobby's house. Castiel and I had created a new house further out by some trees. One of the trees was my oak that I seemed to keep a personal diary in. I am so weird.

Today I was moving stuff to the new house. Of course I didn't actually. I carried Liam around the scrap yard.

"Dean can move our stuff. Right Liam?"

Liam giggled and blew bubbles with his mouth. He was adorable. I sat on the hood of a car and fell into an uneasy sleep.

Angels were speaking in enochian. They were calling for Castiel and Balthazar. I heard Balthazar answer but their was no reply from Castiel.

"Is the woman okay?"

"Kaylee is alright."

"Where is Castiel?"

"I am not sure."

"Does she know?"

"No."

"She could be lying."

"She isn't. Don't accuse her of anything."

It was nice to have Balthazar stick up for me but that wasn't why my heart was beating fast or why a cold icy feeling was spreading through my veins. Castiel never answered. It had been about a month since the last time anyone had heard from him.

Could Cass be dead?

[A/N: Okay I'm sorry. It's a bit of a filler. Next one will hopefully be better.]