Our Euphoria - JiKook [COMPLETE]

21. Fear and Guilt

-Jungkooks POV-

I got up the next morning to find that Jimin was already awake. I went out to see he was watching TV. I feel awful for forgetting our anniversary. And I dont know what to expect when I take a seat beside him. "Jimin? I am sorry I forgot. Will you look at me? Please?" I said but he didnt move. He just kept watching the TV. Okay I deserve that. Thats a stupid excuse especially since it was just last week that we talked about our anniversary. I cant believe I spaced it. He stood up without a word going into the room. We have a schedule today, a long one. He cant ignore me the whole day.

Oh he did. It was incredibly awkward. Everyone could feel the awkward. He did my makeup in silence but was chatty with everyone else. I hated it. Isnt this a bit childish? I pushed through the last photoshoot feeling myself getting angry. I pushed past him into the dressing room. I changed into my clothes. I grabbed his arm pulling him out to our car. "L-Let go. Your hurting me." I heard him say from behind me. I let go of his arm making my way to the car. We drove home in silence and I tried to calm myself down. I slammed my door and made my way into the house.

Breathe Jungkook. Breathe. I went out to see him in the livingroom. "I apologized multiple times Jimin. Why cant you just forgive me!?" I shouted at him. "What? You never forgot anything in your life before!? Huh!?" I said grabbing at him. But thats when I realized it. He looked scared. "N-No dont please. Please stay back." He said once I let go of him. I tried reaching for him but he kept backing away. "No I-Im sorry. Please." I said but he just cried moving away flinching. "P-Please dont hurt me." He said and I felt my heart break at the sight. He stood there before running out the house. I ran after him a few blocks before I saw Taehyungs car. What have I done? What happened?

A week. Hes been gone for a week and no one is answering me. I went to Yoongis place and thankfully Taehyung answered the door. "Hes not here. And you need to give him space right now." He said as he closed the door. But I put my foot in the door stopping him. "No wait. I wasnt going to actually hurt him. I would never. I was just frustrated." He sighed and motioned me to come inside. "I shouldnt be the one telling you this. Have you ever wondered why he has scratch mark on his back? Or the faint bruise on his left calf? Or the little scar on his stomache?" He said and I thought for a minute. I remember pointing out the scar to him but he said he was just being clumsy.

I never thought much of it. "His last boyfriend, complete asshole. He came home drunk one night and h-he hurt him. Worst then hes ever done before. Hes lucky his others scars healed and you cant see them. But those three never wont away. Its been 3 years and he still has panick attacks. You triggered it, unknowingly. Hes upstairs too." I nodded wiping the tears from my cheeks. I never ever would think of laying my hands on him. I just was angry and I didnt think I was hurting him. I went up to Yoongis guest room to see him. I opened the door and looked in to see him on the bed. He looked instantly backing away from me.

I walked slowly towards the bed in hopes he wont be scared. "Sh, I wont hurt you. Its just me baby. Your Kookie. Its okay sweetheart." I said climbing onto the bed slowly. "I wont hurt you. Okay?" He slowly started to relax and I took as a sign to get closer to him. "Im sorry I grabbed your arm. But baby, I will never hurt you like that again. I will never hit you. Please, believe me. I love you so much." I said holding my arms out for him. I just wanted my baby. I want to protect him from the world. "You promise?" He said quietly as he moved into my arms. I slowly reached to pull his shirt off.

I got close enough to lightly caress his scratch mark on his back. I pulled back giving his cheek a peck. I lightly motioned him to lay back, to which he did. I reached down giving his scar a soft peck. I could feel myself begin to cry as I made my way to his bruise. I reached forward grabbing his wrist lightly. I placed a few kisses in the areas I grabbed at. Thankfully I didnt leave a mark, I would hate to see a reminder of my carelessness. "Im not like that guy Jimin. Yes, I lost control of my anger. But I promise I will never hurt you again. I dont want you to look at me that way again. I love you Jimin." I said caressing his cheek softly.

I peppered his face with kisses as I began to cry. I felt him wipe away my tears and I open my eyes to look at him. "I forgive you. Can you forgive me?" He said quietly and I nodded. "Can I kiss you?" He giggled bring me closer in response. We shared a kiss full of love, want and passion. I will do anything to keep him safe from the world. He deserves the world. He deserves to be treated like a Prince. My Prince. He is my happiness. "Will you come home with me?" I asked after awhile of laying there together. "Yes. Im ready to come home." He said looking up with me with a smile. Now that is how I want him to look at me. When he feels safe and loved.

-Jimins POV-

I watched as he packed the clothes I brought over here. He looked over stretching his hand out for me. I climbed off the bed and took his hand. "Jimin? Is that yo-oh." I looked up to see Yoongi in the hallway. He noticed Jungkook who was behind me. "You. What are you doing?" He said as he walked straight towards Jungkook. But I quickly moved in between then. "Hyung its okay. Im okay. We talked, we are okay." He nodded and lightly moved me from my spot. "If I ever hear that you hurt him again. Or he comes here looking like that again. I will personally break every bone in your body." He said before turning to give me a smile and going up to his room.

We drove home in silence and I reached for his hand as we walked up to the house. I felt safe. I know Im safe with him. "Im really sorry I grabbed you like that. I shouldnt have, and I shouldnt have pulled you out like that. Or yanked your a-." I placed my finger against his lips to quiet him. "I forgive you. And Im okay, really." I said moving to bring his arms around me. "I couldve left a bruise or broke your arm." He said as tears began to form in his eyes. "You didnt. Your not like him, you wouldnt have. Im okay. No marks and my bones feel fine." I assured him as I kissed his tears away.

I brought him to the room as he stayed silent. He still had the same look of guilt on his face. "I love you Jeon Jungkook. You make me feel safe and protected. I feel important with you. You make me happy and Im grateful to have met you. Such a kind soul. I know you were upset but please. Dont beat yourself up about this. I forgive you. Please, lets forget this happened." I said as I sat on his lap. I just wanted to be happy again. "Why didnt you tell me?" He said after awhile of sitting like this. "Its in the past, the one I like to forget. And hes locked up, he cant hurt me again." I said earning a little nod. We spent the rest of the day in bed. Just laying there in the safety of our arms. I was safe.

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