Secret Rendezvous

We Could be a Family

December 20, 1980

Freddie
I hadn't told Jim about me being with Brian during the tour. We had let it happen more than once and I immediately regretted all of it as soon as I saw Jim at the airport. He was so happy to see me, and to see Finny again, then he took me home and he fucked me hard- I loved it when he did that, a nice welcome home gift after a long tour.

We were heading back to Tokyo in February and I was kind of nervous because that was where it all began with Brian and I. I wanted to take Faria there, because that's where she was made and I wanted her to see all the beauty that I experienced whenever I was there. I had a feeling that she'd be connected to Tokyo, just because she loved beautiful things and stories about herself- well, I wouldn't tell her that we made her there, but I would tell her that it was an important place for her to be.

"What're you doing for Faria's birthday today? We didn't send out invitations." Jim whispered against the nape of my neck, kissing me softly there.

"She didn't want a birthday party. She just wanted to go out with Brian and I tonight." I rolled over to face him. "Is that okay? I know that you don't like it when I spend time with Brian, but it would make her happy to see us together." I explained and Jim sighed, softly.

"You've been spending a lot of time with him lately." He looked down and he held my hands tightly. "Did you forget about our son?" He rubbed my stomach and I frowned at him.

"How could I forget about him? He's literally pounding my bladder right now with his little fists." I looked down at my stomach and Jim chuckled. "I just want her to know that Brian and I are still friends. She needs to see that we're still friends and that separated parents can still get along." I explained and he rolled onto his back with a sigh. "And we need to discuss how we're going to work out the school situation come September." Faria was getting ready to go to Reception- we decided to keep her back a year and I think it helped because she got to travel the world.

"It just seems a lot like you're falling in love with him again." He murmured, sounding uneasy, and I frowned before holding his cheeks in my hands.

"I would never do that to you, love. I'm with you, I love you, I love our family." I smiled when his hand touched my stomach. "But I also have a family with Brian, and that needs some attention right now." I kissed his forehead and he sighed before getting up and locking himself in the en suite bathroom.

I groaned, loudly, then the bedroom door swung open and Faria squealed while she ran over to the bed.

"Guess who's birthday is today?" She smiled, pulling herself up onto the bed.

"Is it Finny's birthday? Is he finally coming out?" I chuckled and she shook her head. "Is it my birthday? I thought my birthday was a couple months ago." I gave her a faux frown and she groaned.

"No, baba, it's not your birthday!" She exclaimed and I chuckled a bit.

"Is it papa's birthday? I thought his was in January." I cocked my head at her and she laughed a bit. "Or is it daddy's birthday?"

"It's not papa or daddy's birthday!" She held my hand.

"Well I don't know who else has a birthday... Tiffany?" I asked and she started laughing again.

"It's my birthday!" She finally told me and I widened my eyes in fake surprise.

"What?! It's my Faria's birthday?!" I gasped and she nodded with an excited squeal. "How old are you now?" I asked, running my fingers through her hair.

"Four!" She exclaimed, smiling, and I cooed, softly.

"You're my big girl now." I sighed, then she laid with me, resting her head on my chest. "I'm so sad that you're getting big." I whispered and she smiled up at me- I felt like she thought it was funny whenever I was sad. "Why do you always laugh when I'm sad?" I chuckled, softly, and she shrugged.