Coffee & Kisses

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   Yoongi walked out of the coffee shop, his heart slowly dropping into his stomach as he realized Jimin wasn't going to come after him. Yoongi sighed a watery sigh, eyes beginning to well up with tears as he walked farther and farther away from the cafe. Yoongi chucked his still half empty cup of coffee into a nearby garbage bin, no longer having an appetite for it. Before Yoongi knew it he was crying, and no matter how he'd he tried the flow of tears wouldn't relent. Yoongi hiccuped silently and trudged his way back to campus.

Just as his luck would have it, rain drops began falling from the sky. They were freezing, chilling Yoongi to the bone. A shiver ran up his spine as another hiccup slipped past his lips, and he was having a hard time trying to focus on not sobbing. Soon the campus came into view, but Yoongi stopped. The rain had become steadily stronger, the only noise was the pelting rain drops that ferociously hit the pavement and trees. Yoongi stood there, letting the rain drops consume him, he was nearly completely drenched. His breath caught in his throat as he tried to stop his crying. Yoongi kicked the pavement and veered left. He didn't know where he was going but he didn't care.

The sobs were beginning to slip past his lips, and he couldn't make it end. He continued on his way until he saw a public library. He pulled his hood closer to his face and went inside, the tears now coming down in an endless stream. He hated himself for being so weak.

The library was thankfully dimly lit, save for the desk lamps that were around the people reading. The librarian was too consumed in reading that she didn't even notice that the door had opened, so with that Yoongi walked all the way to the back of the library and sat down on a bean bag, placing his backpack to his side.

He laid there, biting his sweatshirt to quieten the sobs. He let the feeling of vulnerability consume him in thy moment. He was sick of this emotional roller coaster. It felt like Jimin had ripped his poor little heart out and stomped on it, making sure to pulverize the crap out of it before handing it back to Yoongi with an innocent smile that Yoongi was one hundred percent a sucker for. His mind was constantly, Jimin this and Jimin that, and he wanted his mind to stop, just for a second.

After he had cried all the tears he could, Yoongi took out his phone. It read: 167 notifications. Yoongi sniffed, ignoring them all and going to his contacts. A little bit of relief washed through him as he saw the contact name.

"Junki Hyung, hey..." Yoongi said sighing for what seemed like he hundredth time that day.
"Hello my favorite brother!" Junki said cheerfully, making Yoongi crack a little smile.
"I'm your only brother." Yoongi said, making Junki laugh a hearty laugh.
"That's the point, obviously. Now why'd ya call me Yoongs?" Junki asked, a serious tone settling in.
"It's Jimin..." Yoongi said, a sniff slipping out as his nose tightened up, the invisible tears threatening to rack his body once more.
"Hun have you been crying? Wait never mind you don't like to admit that. It's the boy again though? I'm really sorry Yoongs, but I'm here to vent though." Junki said, concern flooding his voice. Yoongi sniffed again, and then, it ok just poured out of him. He told Junki all that had been hurting him at the moment, and Junki listened patiently, allowing Yoongi to vent.
Usually Yoongi would feel guilty about unloading his problems, but Junki on multiple occasion had assured him, saying that Yoongi did the same to him when he himself was feeling down.

"It'll be alright hun." Junki offered, telling the younger small words of comfort as he calmed down from his rant, the occasional sniff coming out of Yoongi every now and then.
Before Yoongi knew it, his eyes slowly drooped, completely exhausted from today's events. Eventually sleep overtook Yoongi, and he felt peaceful for the first time in awhile.