Coffee & Kisses

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   Jimin hates himself. He wants to scream at his own emotions and mind, letting Yoongi walk away like that, letting the older get hurt in the fight with his disgusting ex. Jimin shuddered at the mere thought of Taemin. Taemin had stolen all of Jimin's social media passwords and confiscated Jimin's phone when he as suspicious of him doing anything without his own permission. When Jimin would be defiant, he'd be smacked and pummeled, and he couldn't even leave Taemin's apartment without the other knowing and watching him at all times. He finally broke it off with shouting and getting beaten before being able to run away to the safety of his Hyung's arms. Jimin had used Taemin, in the beginning, to get over Yoongi, but when Taemin had found out, that's when the relationship soured. He knew it was wrong, but he didn't know what else to do.

   Jimin hadn't known what relief had felt like in a long time, but when he saw Yoongi, he was nearly crushed underneath the weight of it. He didn't know why though that he let Yoongi leave that coffee shop. He seemed frozen in time at that moment, not a single thought occurring in his mind. And then in the bedroom, his entire mind was screaming to tell the truth to Yoongi, to beg for forgiveness, to hug the older and to be held by him and he told that everything would be ok, but that never happened. Furthering the damage he caused at the coffee shop. That night he cried himself to sleep harder than he ever had before. Jimin's heart ached at the sight of Yoongi being hurt physically and emotionally, and Jimin knew enough that he had hurt Yoongi deeply. He wanted so many things and to do multiple things but his body stayed bolted to the bed of his dorm.

   Jimin punched his pillow and stood up, the ache from his eye and back hitting him without notice; causing him to stumble a bit and sit back on the bed. Jimin stood up once more and walked gingerly over to the closet and changing into comfortable clothes before grabbing a notepad and to write out all he wanted to say to Yoongi.

  "Hyung, you don't know how unbelievably sorry I am for what I have done to you. I don't have an explanation except for the fact that I couldn't speak, and I couldn't move. You don't deserve this, and it hurts my heart to see you hurt in any way. I am so so sorry, and I can't say anything to defend myself. Whatever you want to know I will tell you, about Taemin, about my feelings, and whatever else you need. It's a huge stretch, but if you're even able to forgive me could we still be friends? We don't have to be best friends like before but I wouldn't be able to live without you Hyung. I just couldn't, and every morning I wake up the memory of my stupidity is enough to make me cry. I am truly so sorry Yoongi Hyung."

   Jimin's eyes began to water as he wrote down what he wanted to say, he wanted to go back to what they were before, best friends, not whatever this was now. He never wanted to have met Taemin, and he would just deal with this silly little one-sided love that he felt in some other way. He wanted to hold Yoongi in his arms and comb his fingers through his hair while watching some random K-Drama or Anime show. He wanted those simple nights back again that made him fall in love all those years ago. He didn't want to be away from the older ever again, and he didn't want what was happening at all.

   Before Jimin knew it, he was sobbing into his hands with the thoughts of those nights with Yoongi that made his heart swell every second and his breath to catch in his throat. Eventually the tears dried and he couldn't cry anymore, so he went to wash up his face and put on some shoes and walked with a heavy heart to Yoongi's dorm.

   He knocked on the door once he reached his destination, his heart in the pit of his stomach. A sleepy Yoongi answered the door, his eyes not even open and a bandage across the cheek that was cut and little circular bandages around his knuckles where the were cut too. The sight made Jimin's breath catch in his throat and his heart skip a beat. He wanted to see this every morning, this side of Yoongi.

  "Hyung.." Jimin uttered barely above a whisper, Yoongi's tired eyes didn't even open as his eyebrows furrowed together in confused anger. He went to close the door but Jimin stopped it with his foot. "Can I please come in?" Jimin quietly said, holding back the urge to hold the older in that moment.

   "No... No, no, no. Minnie.. Minnie hurt me. Minnie hurt.." Yoongi tiredly uttered, eyebrows still furrowed together in confused anger and sadness and eyes closed. Jimin's eyes prickled at what he said.

   "Yeah, Minnie did... But Minnie wants to make it up to Yoonie.." Jimin said, the prickling sensation lingering as Yoongi sighed cutely and opened the door a fraction more. And oh how amazing it felt to say the nickname 'Yoonie' again, it'd been forever, and Jimin relished the feeling in that moment, even though it was quite bittersweet.

   "Minnie better have good explanation.." Yoongi drowsily whispered with a tiny yawn.

I'm gonna do a double update today!! :D (later today tho cuz I'm busy)
Also I made another book and fixed it up a bit, it's called, The Underground and if you want to read it that'd be great and thank you guys for reading my works :') ❤️