I'm Yours~Eddsworld X Reader (CURRENTLY EDITING)

Chapter 14: Get you off my mind. *Warning sad, only Tom's POV*

"Sometimes, things happen. Things we can't control, that we dislike. Things that affect us yet we cannot change. You try and try to change it, but it never works. Your life sometimes even depends on these things, and they aren't controllable. You will sit in your room all day, thinking how much you want it to change. So much, that it hurts. You want to do other things to yourself to make you feel better, and they make it worse. All you can think abut is that one thing... you try to forget. But you eventually run into it, and your heart throbs. Your chest aches, your mind flutters, your body trembles, your head spins, your voice shakes, and your choice is unforgiving. You feel that everything you knew and now know all don't even matter anymore. Just that one thing... that feeling it gives you. The nightmares it gives you. The way you react to it is the only thing you can control... and you always end up even failing at that." -Kala Lansford

Tom's POV:

I woke up, in an empty room. It's usually empty, but I feel as if it never was. My chest is hurting, and my eyes are tired. The only thing crossing my mind, ignoring the fact that my whole body hurts and that I have no more Smirnoff, is her. Yesterday, I cried for hours upon hours. I would stop for awhile, then she would pop back into my mind and i would cry again. I cut myself, I wrote the worst things about myself in my notebook, i still trembled from the thought of not having her. I'm happy that she is with someone I can now trust, but I can't stand the thought of... I can't even think about it anymore. It hurts deep into everything I am.

I picked up Susan, my only companion, and strummed her lightly. She was luckily in tune, so I started playing a song that went well with my situation.

*play song above*

"I'm too young too dumb to realize

That I should've bought you flowers, held your hand

I should've gave you all my hours, when I had the chance

Take you to every party, cause all you wanted to do was dance

Now my baby's dancing, but she's dancing with another man."

I started to shake, my hands unable to strum her anymore. My eyes started to form tears and I was too weak to hold them back. I'll always be weak, i was weak enough to let her go. I was weak enough to be friends with Tord. I'm so weak, that I can't leave me room or else she will see me. I can't see either of them, I would physically and mentally break down.

Then I heard a knock, with drained tears on my cheeks I got up and placed my hand on the door.

"Who is it?"

"It's Matt, I wanna talk to you."

I opened the door and his face went from a huge smile to a concerned, sad look. I could telling it was because of my face and the way my room smelled and how shitty I looked.

"Oh, hunny, let me fix you up. You can rant while I work my magic."

"O-Okay, thanks Matt"

He smiled then went to my closet. He seemed to be looking for something specific. He then pulled out a white hoodie. It had super long sleeves and was a little too long. It probably reached my knees.

"Yes, I love this thing on you! I bought it for you for Christmas and you never wear it!"

I smiled then looked at my feet. Matt and I have always been really close, secretly though. Tord or edd don't know that we hang out a lot and know more about each other than we do the others. We bonded a lot after Tord left, when we all felt a little lonely. I like hanging out with him, he is a really good friend.

He then got some black shorts and an under shirt. I hope he wasn't panning on doing my makeup or anything. He always brings it up, and i'll always say no.

"Okay get dressed." He then pulled out his phone and seemed to not be looking at me, so I took off my hoodie and shirt. Then, I put on the long sweater that was really soft. It was okay to take off my jeans, because the sweater covered my lower half. I saw Matt look up from his phone and stare at my hairy legs. "I'm not a girl, I don't shave." He gave me a confused look then went back to his phone. "I wasn't looking at that... it was just the sweater. It's cute!" He is always so nice and I don't know how to compliment back anything except "Thanks".