Undecided Love

(9) Start

Treasha's POV

"Where's mom?" I ask yaya.

"Ahmm..wala pa po sila maam, malelate daw po sila ng uwi, may bussiness-"

Bago pa maituloy ni yaya ang sasabhin nya pinutol ko na, alam ko naman na kung nasan sila.

"Treash, Are really okay, Do you want me to acompany you until your mom and kuya got here?" tanong ni Gian sakin.

Friend ko.

"No, I can manage, gusto ko na magpahinga,sorry for today, I'll promise for another time." Malamya kong sagot.

"No, its okay, Its always an exception for you" He smile.

"Okay bye" I weakly said, and kiss her on his cheeks, its normal lagi naman naming ginagawa yan.

Bago pa sya makapag salita tumalikod na ako at umakyat sa kwarto.

Ewan ko kung bakit, but for some reasons I feel so tired, physicaly mentaly emotionaly.

Nag shower muna ako, do my ritwals.

And after that, nadaanan ko yung window sa kwarto ko, And noticed that it's still raining. Nakikisabay ata ang panahom sakin.

Again, I remember.

"Manligaw......kay Ellaine."

How dumb I am, Ano bang pumasok sa isip ko at pumayag akong tulungan sya.

Bakit ganun?

Why people keep on doing such dumb things is they knew that i'll hurt them?

And I'm one of those dumb people.

Nanglalanta na bumalik na ako sa kama ko,

Bakit ba ganito?

Bakit ba sobrang naapektuhan ako about sa nangyari kanina?

Bakit pakiramdam ko tinutusok yung puso ko ng karayom.

Bakit parang naiiyak ako,

On the second thought, umiiyak na pala ako.

Argh, I hate this feeling!

I rally hate this,

Bakit ba?

Bakit ba parang matagal ko na syang kilala?

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"Oh, Treasha, Bakit namamaga yang mata mo?" Tanong sakin ni kuya, ni hindi ko pa nga nalalapat yung butt ko sa upuan, may nasita na agad sakin, tch, ibang klase.

"Dont mind, its no big deal." Plain na sagot ko sa kanya.

"Okay, sabi mo eh." He mockingly said.

"Tama na yan, pakainin mo muna yang kapatid mo, at hindi yan kumain kagabi." Pangaawat ni mommy kay kuya.

Di ko n lang sila pinansin, basta matamlay lang ako, ewan ko kung bakit, no one can explaine this feeling.

"Treasha, baby, where did you go last night? I'm not able to talk you 'cause I'm so busy like-" mom

"I'm with Gian, and its okay, dont mind me, I'm OKAY, Bye sa school na lang ako kakain." I blandly said, nag beso muna ako kay mom and kuya.

"Treasha!!!Treasha!!!!" di ko na pinansin ang mga tawag sakin ni mom.

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School

"Treash, are you okay?  bakit parang matamlay ka? may sakit ka ba?" nag aalalang tanong sakin ni Gian.