Mark's P.O.V
what the fuck is wrong with me?
I thought I could be ok with Jaebum and YuJin, I really thought I could handle it. But seeing the two together sets something off inside of me.
Be it anger or envy, I knew that I wanted what he has, I wanted to hold her like that, make her laugh like that. But I can't.
& I thought I could accept that and slowly but surely get over her.
But I guess I really didn't know how much I liked her till I saw her with someone else.
So now the plan was to push her away, the further I push her away the easier it'll be to get over her.
Even if that means hurting her feelings a little and making my insides twist with guilt. It's better than creating a whole other problematic situation wherein I confess to her.
Yeah. It's better this way.
YuJin's P.O.V
the entire fucking week.
This entire week Mark has been either telling me to go away or just blatantly ignoring me. I've thought of every possible way I could've possibly angered him.
Nothing.
Nothing comes to mind at all. But there's no way in hell I'm about to give up.
"Lee YuJin?" A voice snaps me out of my endless whirlwind of thoughts. I hum in response looking up to see Jaebum's worried face.
"That's the 3rd time I called your name, are you ok?" He asks softly, sitting down beside me. I nod with a smile, "Yeah, just tired."
"Lemme see." he says suddenly and places his index finger under my chin, tilting my face up to meet his.
His face was merely inches away from mine & I held my breath - my heart beating erratically.
"Liar." he breathed, delving into my eyes.
"Y-yah, you can't do that, that's not fair." I complained childishly yet still a little flustered, hitting his chest lightly causing him to chuckle.
"Tell me what's wrong YuJin." he said comfortingly. I looked at him once more and sighed.
"It's Mark."
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I walked early into the empty class.
well, the nearly empty class.
Mark sat at his desk which was beside mine, his hoodie on and his head on the table, sleeping.
I walked up to the sleeping boy and softly tapped him.
"Mark, wake up we have class in 5 minutes." I say.
He lifts his head up and oh boy. He had deep dark circles under his eyes, his lips were chalky and his face sunken.
The kid looked like he hadn't slept in ages and his health was most definitely deteriorating.
"Mark..." I trailed off softly.
He scoffed, "I don't need your pity."
"Yah, its been a week since you've been treating me like this, what on earth could I have done to you to deserve this?!" I yell, at my breaking point.
"Leave me alone." He gritted lowly through his teeth.
"No!" I had finally had enough, "No, I deserve to know why you've been treating me like shit!"
"You wanna know? Alright then, Lee YuJin I like you!" He chuckled, "I really fucking like you & I can't stop, there, are you happy?"
The expression of anger slowly fell from my face.
"Honestly, I have for a while now but have always been too scared to admit it to myself let alone to you. The night I finally did admit it to myself, it was already too late.
I'll admit I'm jealous, I'm so jealous of Jaebum it makes me pity myself a little. I envy the fact that he gets to be with you."
His eyes were tearing up a little and he had to bite his lip to stop the quivering.
"So please, do me this one favour and allow me to treat you like this if it means I won't like you anymore. If it means I won't have to envy Jaebum anymore. If it means I won't have a huge weight on my chest anymore. Please."
My eyes were brimmed with tears as I opened my mouth to say something. Though before I could, the bell rang signalising that students would be here soon.
Mark's focus turned from me to the door behind me. Confused, I turned around to see Jaebum standing in the doorway.
& my guess is that he heard everything.
He had an unreadable expression on his face. I hadn't seen his cold face in a while. I don't like blank face Jaebum, it scares me.
Before I could say anything at all, my mind still in a chaotic storm, the students came pouring in as well as the teacher who ordered students to their seats.
As we sat down, I noticed an unfamiliar small brunette walking in after the teacher.
"Alright settle down class." The teacher, Mrs Hwang, the elderly history teacher ordered to which the conversations came to a halt.
"We have a new student joining us from today, would you like to introduce yourself?" She gestured with a smile towards the petite girl beside her.
"Yes, hello! My name is Meena Kim, I am half Indian & half Korean but grew up in the UK. Though I'm back here to continue my studies. I look forward to working with you all!" She exclaimed, bowing down whilst still bubbling with excitement.
She sure is a bundle of sunshine.
"Alright Meena, you can sit..." Mrs Kim trailed off, scanning the room for empty seats, "Ah, beside Mr Tuan. & Mr Tuan please do get your head off the table, this is a classroom not your bedroom." she scowled.
I watched as the small girl's honey brown orbs sparkled with excitement upon seeing the boy.
I looked at the boy beside her who had resumed slumping over his desk without even glancing at the cute excitable female.
I then looked behind me to see Jaebum's dark orbs piercing directly into mine.
Well fuck.
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