Save Me From Myself » Daniel Howell AU

Chapter 10

I hated having to say goodbye to Arianna, but I was really excited to see Dan and Phil again. I promised Arianna that we would meet up once she got out. I told Dan and Phil that I had a few more weeks in the mental ward, which was a complete lie. Especially considering that I was standing outside the door to the flat. I sighed nervously and knocked on the door. A few seconds later, Phil opened the door. I kind of hoped Dan would be the first I saw. 

"You said it'd be another few weeks!" Phil yelled as he hugged me tight. "I lied," I told him, laughing as I hugged him back. I saw Dan come into the room to see what was going on. His eyes went wide when he saw me. Phil pulled away. I walked in, sitting my bag on the floor. I opened up my arms for Dan to hug me. He ran forward, hugging me tightly and slightly picking me up off the ground. I wrapped my arms around his torso and buried my face in his shoulder, taking in his scent. "I missed you," Dan exclaimed. "I missed you too," I said, laughing. I pulled away. 

"We should go out to eat or something, but PJ and Chris are already coming over," Phil suggested. I shrugged, "It sounds like a good idea. I need something besides hospital food. PJ and Chris can come too," I told them. I saw Dan's eyes widen. "SHE'S BETTER!" Dan yelled and I laughed. There was a knock at the door and Phil went to open it. PJ stood at the door. He instantly spotted me. 

"Waaaait.." He said, smiling wide. "What's up, Peej?" I laughed out. He laughed and walked closer, hugging me. "It's been forever since I saw you," I told him and he nodded. I pulled away and smiled. PJ and I had secretly dated at one point, but ended it because we didn't want Phil to be mad. Dan nor Phil ever knew.

Chris showed up not too long afterwards and we went to some restaurant. Chris told jokes the whole time and PJ kept putting his hand on my knee. I wasn't gonna tell him not to though. I still had feelings for him really. Dan sat on the other side of me, which was pretty awkward. I was sitting between two guys I like and one kept touching my leg. Totally, not awkward.

We soon were back at our flat and PJ & Chris left. I went to my room and found a piece of paper sitting on the bed. I sat my bag down on the bed and picked up the note. I unfolded it and instantly recognized the handwriting.

I don't know when you'll be back to read this. Oh, thanks for the compliment on my laugh. I know that was you. You weren't fooling me. I've been meaning to tell you this for a long time and haven't ever been able to muster up the courage. I still can't say it in person, so here we go. I love you, Megan. I always tell you that, but you think I mean it in a friend way and I love you way more than that. I don't know if you feel the same way or not. But... I just love you. -Dan

Dan loves me? Everything started coming together. The girl he was writing about in the journal was me. When he started talking about Phil, it's because Phil would be mad if we started dating. If I dated any of his friends, he would be mad. That's why PJ and I ended our relationship. PJ.. I still have feelings for PJ, and he has feelings for me too. Dan is getting right in the middle now. This is not good..