How do you sleep when you lie to me? That's something I've never been able to do. White lies are manageable, at first but when the spiral hits I'm left in a pit of guilt and self hatred. I'd never lie to you, I couldn't even dream of it. But you don't have an issue with it, do you Fraser? You can lie and lie and feel nothing. Don't you see how much you're hurting me, hurting us?
Your lies have done so much damage but you don't even realise I'm in on them now. You told me it was only ever me, you said that I was all you've ever needed and wanted. We just had to be quiet, we had to keep it secret for your 'image'. No one could know about little old me because you were scared of how the general public would react if you threw me into the limelight. Fraser, that wouldn't hurt as much as you hurt me with all those twisted truths.
You see, I could really hurt you and your image. I could destroy you in one second, but I'm not that harsh. I may be that bitter and twisted but never that evil. I don't want to bring you down Fraser, I just want to hurt you a little. Give you a fraction of the pain you gave me.
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Dirty little secret or just another regret. Who has to know?
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You hurt me Fraser, I thought you wanted me. Turns out that bitch on the side was worth more than me. More socially acceptable, more 'normal'. How long has it been going on? Days, weeks or months. It's funny because I'd seen her around, she's always on nights out and just there. How didn't I catch on sooner? Or was I just trying to ignore the fact you lied to me?
Worst part is I can't hate you. I can't rid my feelings the way you did, but did you ever have them or was that another lie to add to the list? All it's ever been is lies, I wonder what people would say if they knew the truth. What lie would you give to hide reality this time?
How can you keep up with them all? How are you not tied up in knots and losing control at this very moment? How can you maintain all these lies and still be 'normal'?
How can you sleep when you lie to me? I'd really like to know.
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Sunflowers - Commentary Community
FanfictionA bunch of requests, song inspired stories and escaped thoughts based around the commentary community (James Marriott, ImAllexx, WillNE, Memeulous, Stephen Tries, iNabber etc).
