From Hate To Lust

Chapter Twenty

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“What’s wrong?” Mel asked as she watched me staring at my phone nervously. I looked up to her, biting my lip. “He texted,” I whispered and my eyes flew back to the screen of my phone, that was now black again.
“What could he possibly want?” I muttered and saw her shrugging next to me.
“Dunno, babe, come on, read it,” she encouraged me and I nodded, feeling sick all of a sudden. He had such an effect on me, I hated it.
“I just thought I made it pretty clear that I want him to fuck off,” I said and took a deep breath as I unlocked the screen and tapped on the unread message. It popped up and my mouth fell open slightly as my eyes flew over his text.
“Wow,” I choked out as I handed her my phone and she read the text out loud.
“‘I’m kinda lonely, wanna come over and fix that for me babe? You know you won’t regret it ;)’ What, is he serious?” I felt the words sink in slowly – she read them too, they were actually there. Niall really had the guts to send me such a text after what had happened. I was literally speechless as I stared at her and she seemed just as shocked as I was.
“He’s such a prick,” she breathed, locking my phone before placing it on my nightstand. “God,” she muttered, shaking her head. I still didn’t know what to say as I felt my anger increase. I didn’t understand how he could possibly think I’d come over and fuck him after last night. I let out a heavy sigh as the pictures came back to my mind and shook my head, trying to get them out.
“Ignore him,” Mel said and I nodded weakly. “Don’t answer him at all, you’re probably gonna see him once you’re back in college, so don’t talk to him before.”
“I’m so angry,” I said and gave her an unhappy look. “And disappointed. I thought he might change.”
“I know,” she nodded and wrapped her arm around my shoulders. “Let’s have some good days and try to forget him, alright?”
“Yeah,” I muttered and grabbed a chocolate bar, hoping it would help me through this.

During the next few days I tried my best to catch up with some of my homework and studying. But of course I spent most of my time with Mel in the end. The two of us had a lot more to catch up than I with college stuff and it was kind of more important. To me at least. I needed my friend more than ever and to be with her just helped me to forget my anger and disappointment most of the time. She made me laugh even though I still felt like crying. She was the best medicine to slightly mend my broken heart. And to stop making me think I was stupid for getting my heart broken by Niall in the first place.
On Monday Niall sent me another text, which surprised me. It wasn’t too much like him to run after me even though he had done it before. But still, I didn’t expect another text after I had ignored the one from Saturday night. “Right, you’re skipping class to ignore me now, or what?”
Of course I ignored this text as well, Mel was making sure I didn’t answer Niall at any time; which I surely would’ve done if I had been on my own. He was my weakness.
Mel and I went shopping and I bought some new clothes even though I didn’t exactly need anything. We watched movies, listened to music we used to love when we were younger and talked about old times – she filled me in on everything I had missed in her life and she was still single but hooked up with some guys every now and then, not even wanting to get into a serious relationship or to develop feelings for anyone since it was too much trouble anyways. And of course she was right – look at me.

It was on Wednesday that she told me about this party in the evening. Usually I didn’t attend parties during the week but I had broken this rule for Niall, so why not for her? Besides, I was ditching college anyways and was at my hometown so I didn’t really have to give a damn, right?
Even if I would’ve said no, Mel would’ve convinced me with a lot of talking, about how drunk we’d get and how much fun we’d have. And it was the truth – Mel and I hardly ever had a dull night out, we always had fun and got drunk together. Sometimes we chatted up some hot guys which was never a bad thing.
So I agreed on going with her and she squeaked happily, hugging me before kissing my cheek.
“I knew you would come!” she told me. “And we can get you a hot guy for some distraction.”
I frowned. More guys? I’d rather not get too close to men at the moment. “Mh, yeah,” I said, not very convincingly and she eyed me suspiciously.
“What?” she asked and narrowed her eyes.
“Nothing, I just don’t think I want distraction,” I said with a low voice.
“Of course you want that!” she said vigorously. “Hey, you said it yourself, you even told him you wouldn’t care about what he wants anymore. You said you’d do it with whoever you want. Stick to your own plans and words, it’ll make you feel better.”
I remembered just how determined to sleep with another guy I had been the other weekend, when I had made out with Dave, but that had been before I had realized just how much I fell for Niall. Well, I guess it didn’t matter now. I should prove him that I didn’t need him either, she was right. I would see where this night would lead me to.