Bad Moon

Guilt + health

A/n: Im in so much pain 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Edwards pov

I sigh as I stare at Benjamin, a frown stitched on my face. "You never abandoned me." He looks troubled in his sleep so I stroke his cheek lightly, my fingers barely brushing his skin. Would it truly be so horrible to put this hard time behind us?

No more distrust in his eyes, hurt brimming under the surface of his words to me. Ben and I would go back to how it had been, before I was stupid and left. Benjamin moves, sprawling closer to me and wrapping a warm arm around my midsection.

I stare down at his pink lips, my mind racing. My heart clenches when I think of the women and men he tried to forget me with, the girl he had pressed up against his van, how he looked at her with hunger. Benjamin is...complicated.

I carefully move Benjamins arm when I hear Carlisle call for me from his office. It only takes me a second to reach my adoptive father, Carlisle staring up at me from behind his desk with a troubled expression. "Benjamin needs help, son. Its not a bad thing." He says softly, this is a loaded argument we've been having since we found out about Benjamins mental help.

"He's not crazy, Carlisle. He'll be fine." I hiss, annoyed at having to leave his side for this argument. "Im not saying he's crazy, Edward. Im stating facts, Benjamin has a drug addiction, and he wasn't well. If anyone, no matter their mental health, began behaving like Benjamin had I would tell them to talk to a therapist as well. Edward, he was on a cocktail of drugs to numb his emotions, he wasnt sleeping, he has probably had sex with everyone at Forks and La Push high school. Even if he doesnt remember, how long do you believe this will last? How long until he goes through withdrawal without knowing? Im looking out for Benjamin's best interest. If we don't handle this properly, Im afraid of the results."

He has a history of suicide attempts.

Carlisle thinks purposely as he glances down at Banjamins patient paperwork. I look down at them before holding out a hand. "I'll read them and then we can discuss this." Carlisle glances down ar Bens files at my sentice befote shaking his head.

"No, these are private and given that he hasn't told you about these things, I'd rather give him some privacy. I know you're thinking of how badly Ben may react to the this but he does need this." Carlisle nods at me and I sigh, leaving to rejoin my sleeping Benjamin.