Epitome of Love (girlxgirl) COMPLETED

Chapter 33 All for myself

"Have you ever felt so complete. So complete that you'll ask God why He gave you so much blessings, Well this is that moment"

Steph's POV

'Twas a week full of surprises for the first time i genuinely smile and one of the reason why, is Lowell.'

'After that long battling years trying to move on but numerous time failed now i can finally say i have forgiven the very reason why i am happy now'

Very reason is the term

Because, he showed me the existence of one person. One person who's unconditionally and silently there loving me in my most naive and vulnerable moment despite of the pain that i have caused.

That person didn't stop from showing me that i deserve an execptionally true love.

Who didnt judge me for all my flaws

I never thought, never imagine that one person will ever love me the way She loves me.

You know this moment were you realized you must have done something really good that God blesses you so much

it was her. She maybe a girl, that doesnt mean she can't be love

I know i may overreact it but right now i really feel it.

Not to mention i have some really supportive friends and a loving parents

added to the numbers of blessing that i received is Kyle

And now, i can tell everyone im not ashamed

Why would i?

Mom didn't bother.Dad wont mind

My friends?

all are supportive

now i understand all their behavior during lowell
And Loira moment..

This is all because of me.

The blinded moment.

How i realized the amount of pain i have given her, that i myself can't contain.

The love i feel is surely not a "just for sake" reason. This is voluntarily felt.

Voluntarily developed.

Not forced

Not even a hint of it, im sure of it

'I mean, at first i was too afraid. Why?because, im not sure if what i feel is love or something deeper than that.

I know for myself i like her even before

But chose to ignore it for "friendship-sake"

It's weird that i like her even before. I thought my feelings is too normal

That i thought i like her because she's closer to me

i thought its the hormones

And her being so bold,

Yeah right. I was wrong about those reasons.
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But..

I like her simply because,

i at the back of my conscious mind love her silently

Now, one thing is certain

'I will never ever let go of Kyle, no matter what happen,'

i don't want a failed relationship this time

I will only let her go, when my heart stop from beating

I may overreact things but it's how i see it clearly. It's how i see my life would be

And i'm well aware that i'am ready for this.

For this kind of love

I want her all for myself. I will or can't afford to share her

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"Hey gorgeous" a soft kiss touches my cheeks

Blood rushed soon as her lips leaves my cheeks

'She has this effect

for goodness sake why can't i control this'

I should get use to it, since shes been doing it most of the time

Shes too clingy, but i like it. I found the comfort in it.

It's like shes pulling you out of your deepest thoughts

"Hey"i replied trying to calm my cheeks

Whenever shes around my cheeks wont stop from blushing and i always earn a laugh from her

Cant stop that, whenever i see her i always picture that time when i ask her to help me with my winning and epic fail dreams(you know that thing we did at her house)

"Why are you so early today?" I ask trying to calm myself

Lately, i do feel uncomfortable around her because i can't stop thinking about what happen to us at her house

Yeah .. Yeah. I don't know what it's called but i like what happen

i don't know i just love what happen

And after that, ive been so controlled with my own urges to kiss her or hug her.

Am i being clingy now?

I dont know i like the feeling

Wrap around her

The kiss that we share, everytime she sneeks a kiss and lasted for couple minutes until it went deeper and deeper

Make out, you know

Geez, i dont know what' s with me after that

I found myself longing for her everyday, every minute

Is that bad?
Wanting someone more than wanting to eat or breathe?

Did i overstated that breathe thing?

Cant blame myself, she's like a drug that dug down deep into my nerve rooted down and stucked to my heart (right, science?)