Epitome of Love (girlxgirl) COMPLETED

Chapter 43 Im Yours

Kyle's POV

Truth sets us free

What else do you have to do just to have her back, make her say yes once again?

she is sitting just beside me but it felt shes thousand miles away, it felt like i am looking at a portrait of a very beautiful woman sitting alone, holding a coffee mug, hair flown by the wind--crying her heart out endlessly

'how do you mend a broken heart you brought to the only woman you love?'

'how to make it right?'

whatever it is

'i would definitely do it over and over. I will make her fall inlove everyday for the rest of her life'

" i love you too much that it hurts" her painful words repeatedly crushed my head, it cringe every soul of me

"my heart wants to love you but my mind chosed not to"her tears flowed like river

'trust me one more time i will make sure it will be the last time i will let you cry in pain'

'if i could only turn back time, i will do it for sure to make everything right' i felt endless pain inside that the very foundation of the strenght i thought i have in me is my very own self destruction

there are so many things that i wanted to tell her, but all the words that keeps crushing in my head remained buffles sound, i wanted to convince her but she wouldnt let me explain anything.

i guess thats the price of hurting someone you love, you loses all the rights

'i wanted so much to hug her to make the pain go away, i wish its as easy as healing an open wound'

'have you felt that?a wound after another wound?'

"if you could have just told me, if someone just told me i would have understand, i trusted you so much, i relied my entire future to you"she looked at me and then touch my face with her shaking hand

"did you have any doubt that i cant return your love because of Lowell?or because that thing we had was entirely new for me?" she asked, i was taken aback but did not dare to show signs of it

'it hit me hard'the once confidence i have is slowly fading

'am i?' i doubted myself

"i maybe new to the kind of relationship you offered but that does not give you the license to decide on what would be best for me!" she look away and swig her coffee,

"i understand what my mom did, a mother is a mother i cant change that" she held her cup firmly, she could crush the poor mug with the amount of force she put into it

it is surprising how she can still control her anger, i am expecting her to be that other Raging Steph i encountered earlier but she is still the same Steph the same compasionate, calm and patient and forgiving Steph

"i thought you knew me too well, but from what you did. You know nothing of me"her eyes bore thousands of emotions, contained anger and pain i could not pinpoint as if it is along that line, perhaps both

"i just want what is best for you" i sincerely said. Admitting the things i have done is like admitting the delayed death sentence, admitting she will never be mine again and no hope for forgiveness

"you are not my father or my mother or myself to decide what is best for me" she interrupted

"it is not your call" she followed

"i love you Stephanie, i may have wrongly thought what i did was best for you but that did not change a thing of what i feel"

'i had lost the hope, i thought i had'