𝑰 𝑳𝑶𝑽𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼, ˡᵉᵉ ʲᵉⁿᵒ

i hate me

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[Jeno]

I drag my feet back home, thinking about y/n.

I entered my house and I heard my sister called my name but I didn't care.

I was too shattered to care.

I entered my room.

I locked the door and drop my bag.

I remove my jacket and my eyes landed on the picture frame on my table.

It was a picture of me and y/n.

It was our very first date and I put it in a frame because she told me to.

I never knew that I would stare at it every night, smiling like an idiot.

And now...

Everytime I see her, I feel like crying..

She didn't even tell me she was sick...

She didn't even tell me that she has an illness...

She didn't...

Why was I so stupid?

Why am I so bad?

Why am I......

"So bad at loving someone..."

I grab the picture frame, caressing it.

I see my own tears starting to fall on the glass.

"Y/n...." I pulled the frame closer to my chest.

"I'm so sorry... I'm so so sorry.... I'm so sorry...."

My legs gave in on me.

I couldn't hear anything but my sobs.

I couldn't think of anything but y/n..

I couldn't feel anything but sadness, anger and guilt...

I couldn't...

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[3 weeks ago]

I turn around to the person who called my name.

I immediately put on a smile, seeing y/n run towards me.

She jumps into my arms and I laugh, twirling her around.

"I got the role~," She said with a bright smile.

"Congratulations, princess~" I kiss her forehead and she chuckled.

"How about you? Did you get into the basketball team?" She asked and I nodded.

"We both got what we wanted then." She said and I laughed, nodding again.

I connected our lips, melting into the kiss.

After a second, we broke it.

"It's been one year..." She started and I nodded.