𝑰 𝑳𝑶𝑽𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼, ˡᵉᵉ ʲᵉⁿᵒ

therapy

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[Y/n]

I stare at the white ceiling.

I've been staring at it since we got here.

I couldn't stop thinking about the boys.

I couldn't stop thinking about Jaemin.

About Jeno..

I couldn't stop thinking about how I just left them that day.

How I had visions of Jeno, Jisung and Jaemin crying in therapies.

Kun, the therapist sits down on the chair.

"How are you feeling, y/n?" He asked.

"Horrible... as usual," I replied.

"Why do you feel horrible?"

"I saw them again.. my friends, my brother and my ex," I answered.

"Did it remind you of that day?" He asked again and I nodded.

"That day.. I just woke up.."

"I saw Taeyong beside me and he immediately told me that he will treat me."

"But in order to treat me, we have to go to different countries," I said.

"Did you agree?" He asked again.

"I did. I want to get better." I continue to stare at the ceiling.

"Why exactly did you agree?" I look at him and look back at the ceiling.

"So my brother doesn't have to worry anymore."

"So that I can live a normal life."

"A life without this illness," I said.

"And do you think you're getting better?" He asked again.

It took me time to answer.

Every time I go to hospitals, they are giving me fewer medicines.

They don't give me 3 or 4 medicines at the same time anymore.

"It's yes or no, y/n."

"Yes."

"I am getting better," I replied.

"That's good then but are you feeling anything else?" He asked.

"I am."

"What is that?"

"If I go back to them, will I be okay? Will they treat me the same?" I close my eyes.

Renjun will be treating me like glass.

Haechan and Chenle will probably be watching me more.