𝑰 𝑳𝑶𝑽𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼, ˡᵉᵉ ʲᵉⁿᵒ

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[Jeno]

I exited the house before deciding to take the bus to the hospital.

I look out the window and suddenly remembered a memory.

A memory where I and y/n would always take the bus.

The bus number would be 0202.

We thought that it would stand our order of births.

I'm the second child, she's the second child.

It suddenly starts to rain.

I felt the bus stop and I was already where I'm supposed to be.

I exited the bus, entering the hospital.

I slowly walked to her room.

And there she is.

Still on the same position.

Still on the same bed.

Still attached to the same machines.

I entered the room after putting on the clothes.

I sit beside her, holding her hand.

"Y/n... are you really with me?"

"After all those times, are you still by my side?"

"Don't you want to haunt me?"

"For me to suffer as well?"

"Is my depression my punishment?"

"Is my self harm my punishment?"

"Please... I wanna know.."

I felt like I ran out of tears to cry.

Words to say.

But I didn't run out of feelings to feel.

I heard the door open and saw Jarmin.

He was holding a box, a medium sized one.

He placed it on the couch before walking to her other side.

I kept quiet, keeping my head hang low.

But I noticed his look when he entered the room.

He looked pale.

Tired.

He has red eyes.

He has eye bags.

His hair was a mess.

Everything about him looked lifeless.

And that's how I felt.

Except I did this to y/n.

His only sister whom he dears so much.