Midnight (editing)

15

Everything seems hazy now. The world spun me around its axis like a child on a never-ending carousel. Stumbling into Caleb's room, I find myself sliding down the wall, curling into a tiny ball. I could feel Caleb's arms wrap themselves around me, feel myself floating in the air, feel the soft mattress dip under my weight, feel the sobs wracking my body. Spasms echoed inside my mind, my mind- my mind was in hyper drive, overheating, overthinking, over feeling. I silently wished I could be numb. Emotionless. Limp. Nothing. Everything. All at once, I felt nothing and everything. Then it went blank. Pure black. Bliss, hauntingly empty bliss. 

------------------ *cue spongebob narrator voice* • One week later • ------------------

An icy cup of water rained down upon me, awakening each nerve in my body. A shriek managed to detach itself from my mouth, its shrill character making me wince in protest. My eyes finally opened themselves enough for me to see an angry Caleb glaring at me. "What?" I croaked. 

"its time to go to school, maybe?" he replied sarcastically. 

"No. its time for a drink. Anyways I can't go to school like this, might as well just waste away my life with alcohol. At least then my death can come sooner, and I can meet Zane again." 

"Jesus Zee. It's been a week. What did Juli-" I glare him, and reach for the bottle of Jack Daniels on the nightstand. He simply swats my hand away, although his eyes do soften a little bit. "I'm sorry, I really am, but I need to know- what happened between the two of you? What did he do?" 

I shake my head and whimper, not liking this conversation. "It's better if I don't remember. I can't, okay? If you really really want me to attend school, I'll go, alright? Now, lemme get changed. go, shoo." I push him towards the door, hoping he would change his mind, but he doesn't. 

So I push myself up from the bed, and take a nice, long shower, before looking for some clothes. I find a pair of cute ripped denim shorts and a black and white stripped t shirt, and tie a red flannel shirt of Caleb's around my waist. I look around the cupboard more and find one of my pairs of black boots. Finally, I opt for some (as in A LOT) of black eyeshadow, dark lipstick and 2 black studs, and grab a pair of Dolce and Gabbana sunglasses. Satisfied, I took the elevator to the kitchen, where I found Caleb and Andy discussing him. I clear my throat as my make my way to the fridge and take out a carton of orange juice. I find the alcohol stash and remove a bottle of Absolut. Vodka as well as a silver metal bottle. As is obvious, I mix the juice and vodka and pour it into the bottle, while telling my best friends, "if someone asks, this is orange juice. so.... we going, or what?"

"y-yes. of course. Andy, go with her to the Audi, I'll be just a minute." Caleb hands her the keys and walks away whistling. I huff and walk out the door, to the garage, holding my hands out for the keys. "no. you're drunk Zoe. go sit in the back." Andrea scolds me, frowning at my hand. I get inside the car, sighing against the leather and fold my hands against my chest. By then, Caleb had come back, looking a lot more irritated than before. 

We pulled into the school's parking lot in 15 minutes, which is kinda cool, because Andy was angry and had driven the car at least 18 mph over the speed limit. Then, she pretty much stormed off, which was definitely not a good sign. Caleb took his time, patiently holding the door open for me, while I tried to waste as much time as possible so I didn't actually have to wait around until class starts.