enigmatic

i am the rain

outside is grey. grey can be nice. grey
is nothing. I am nothing too. grey and I
know each other very well. grey is me.
I am grey. I am walking emptiness. a
black hole sucking in anything it can,
but it all just disappears into the void.
void is an empty word. Jordyn is an
empty word. empty and grey are in
love. they hold hands at the train station
and converse over coffee in the early
morning. grey and empty hold me. sometimes
it can be nice. I don't know what nice
feels like. I don't know what feeling feels
like. or maybe I feel too much and now
I've run out of feeling. maybe I am run out.
run down. I put my whole self in, but lost
the race. now I'm lost outside. outside in
the rain. the rain makes me feel more whole.
people don't like the rain. people don't like
me either.