Angel With A Shotgun

Chapter 10

10.

The encounter I had with Daniel escalated quickly when Dad received a call from Tita Loreen who is so mad with what I did to her son and threatened him that they will sue me. Dad got angry with the fact that I had to go down myself to get a cup of coffee and I ended up crying to him when he saw me.

I'm already calm and in the right state of mind when I requested that I want to move my office in a different floor of the building. Nanghihina pa rin ako habang nasa loob ng office na 'to at buong buo pa rin sa isip ko ang pagtatangka ng taong pinagkatiwalaan ko. I can't continue to work if my everyday life will just remind me of that awful experience whenever I'm inside of it.

"Maybe it's best if you'll go home now. Kailangan mong magpahinga at makinig ka kapag sinabi kong huwag ka na munang pumasok sa opisina. I'll get the fifth floor ready for your new office before you go back." I'm still in his office, at nahihiya na ako kasi hindi siya nagtatrabaho habang nandito ako.

"Is it okay if I'll personally handle the move? Para may magawa ako. I can't stay in the house without doing anything."

Sinamaan niya ako ng tingin. "Are you really asking me that question? After what happened to you today, yan pa ang itatanong mo sakin? Tatawagan ko ang Mommy mo at papasamahan kita sa doktor. I can't stand seeing you in trauma, Kaesley." He said in gritted teeth.

"I'm not in trauma, Dad."

"Don't start an argument because clearly you are. You even had a panic attack! Kung kulang pa yung ginawa kong pagpull out ng shares from their business, marami pa akong paraan para  pagbayaran nila ang ginawa ni Daniel sa 'yo. Sue you? Huh! Then go ahead! I can definitely file a case heavier than physical injury."

"I don't need to see a doctor. It's just, still fresh and maybe I'm just overreacting. I'm sorry, I didn't listen. I will just go home and I'll make sure to have enough rest for tomorrow. Let me go back tomorrow, Dad. Ako mismo ang mag-aayos ng office. Let me just do it. Isa pa, hindi ko pa nasisimulan ang pagpaplano sa birthday party ni Laishah. I only have until next week to do it."

"Kaesley, makinig ka sakin."

"Dad naman."

"Ayokong makipag away sa 'yo ngayon. Go home. Take a long rest. This conversation is over. I'll have Laishah take over for the mean time. Ipapasundo kita sa driver." And he picked up his phone and called someone.

Hindi ko na pinilit ang gusto ko dahil sa tono ng boses at pananalita ni Dad, hinding hindi ako mananalo.

Pinipilit ako ni Mommy na magpunta sa isang psychologist for a check up when I got home. Binalita agad ni Daddy sa kanya ang nangyari and she even believed that I'm traumatized with what happened. Maybe I had a panick attack, yes. But I don't want this to be a big deal specially to my parents. I need to show them that I can handle it. That I can definitely get over with what I felt earlier. And what I did to Daniel, I already felt quite okay after doing that. I felt empowered with just throwing a cup of coffee on him.

"Magagalit ang Daddy mo dahil hindi tayo nagpunta ng doktor. Tara na kasi. Saglit lang naman yun, for sure."

"Mom, I know you're worried same as Dad but I promise, that will be the first and last panic attack I will have. I can handle myself and if anything seems wrong, I will reach out to you guys." Sa sobrang pag-aalala ni Mommy, parang ayaw na niyang umalis ng kwarto ko. Bakit ang paranoid ng parents ko?

"You can't tell if that will be the last panic attack you will have, Kaye. That's why it's better if we'll consult a specialist about this."

"I'll be alright, Mommy. Kapag nagkaroon ulit ako ng panic attack, I'll tell you and I'll voluntarily consult a doctor."