A Dash of Inspiration

good enough

honestly think i should do this because this is kinda sad...

i am HONESTLY FINE. PLEASE DONT WORRY ABOUT ME. I AM HAPPY.

ily all !! don't cry 💚

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yes, i have to remind myself
everyday, every night
always reassuring oneself
i'm tired of this fight

this fight of never ending insecurity
always wondering if i'm enough help
i let down my shield, i show my vulnerability
i'm addicted to helping others; i've felt

their pain
can you feel the acid burning your skin? here comes
the rain
my mind is getting crowded...lightning and rolling drums

am i helping you at all?
are your needs being met?
i would prefer that i fall
than break i promise i promised would be kept

i promise that i'll satisfy you
i promise i'll be there
i promise i'll be the shield for you
from all those fuckers who could care

less about how you feel
but don't worry, i'll be here
if your tire's gone, i'll be your wheel
use me and beat me, i'll show no fear

i'll prove to you i'm good enough
i'll prove to you that i'll be tough
i'll prove to you i'm good enough
i'll prove to you that i'll give you love

my never ending waterfall of tears
to wash away the blood
of all those hurt and broken years
to make sure you don't go through that flood

of hurt and pain
of betrayal and hate
of failing and no gain
no prizes on a silver plate

i'll give you everything i've ever wanted
you can have the life i can only wish for
i'll take away the embarrassment that's haunted
you; i've taken it before it tore

you apart
let me be your shield
i'll be the picture they throw the dart
at; i am your shield

will you believe that i'm good enough now?
i gave you everything; i never lie
yet you never were there to reassure me how
i reassured you... all you said was bye

i want to be told that i am good enough
tell me that i'm good enough
i was never told i was good enough
will i ever be good enough?

.

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.

because i've never thought i was good enough

.

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ya girl really can't stray away from them sad poems, can she ? sorry !!

i swear to God i am actually a really happy person even though my poems say otherwise... like i said, it's just easier to write about pain and hurt and stuff like that. i legit have no idea why lol

anyway, i hope you enjoyed reading this; i'll try writing more positive stuff lol. for now, though, you'll have to stick to my depressing poems. SORRY !!

ngl tho i'm not very happy with how this poem turned out ?? like it's not very satisfying for me to read through lol. oh wellllll~

but ty for reading, ily <3