Narcolepsy Sucks & Sleepy Stuff

Sestina: "narke lepsi"

Is this reality or just another of my dreams,

"Please, please, my God

show me a sign and deliver me from this evil,"

I know the truth but I am paralyzed,

trapped in this state of hallucinations

yet again succumbing to my nightmare's horror.

Volatile terrors that cause this horror-

rebuke once peaceful dreams

turning pure thoughts into hallucinations;

requiring me to call on God.

Tears slip down; still I am paralyzed

screaming His Word to rid this evil.

Demons, villains, and all that is evil

delight in success of my onset horror

triumphantly revealing in the face I'm paralyzed.

"Beloved, do not believe every spirit," nor dreams

"test the spirits to see whether they are from God."

I repeat Your words to free me from these hallucinations,

these arrested hallucinations,

arising solely from some evil.

Again I will call on You God,

"deliver my soul: oh save me for thy mercies' sake" from thy horror

of my own deceitful merciless dreams

and the body that betrays me: paralyzed.

Exposed to this numbness- eyes open, paralyzed,

slipping back and forth into clocklike hallucinations

that have engulfed my dreams

of love and tranquility; poisoning memories with evil

that forces me to know such horror

of that which others escape. But praise O God,

"even the demons submit to us in your name," O Gracious God.

Although I am paralyzed-

shaken to the core with the horror

of these cruel hallucinations;

"I will fear no evil:

For thou art with me;" and comfort even in dreams.

Comfort me God in the midst of my hallucinations.

Release my paralyzed body and trap these memories of evil

and while I praise you, I give to you the horror of my dreams.