Roadtrip one shots!

Im not okay

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 Okay before we start the one shot I need to say something

My mental health isnt the best and Im havinng so many thoughts regarding how do I say this um suicidal thoughts. This is something I havent told my parents because Im scared of their reactions. Most will lie and say I am okay, but I cant lie to anyone anymore.

Im not okay and cant handle these on my own...

This is what Im doing right now and thinking...

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Andy POV

Im sat on my bed strumming my gutair writing stories of Rye and I on my phone. I look up to see a picture of me and him when we first met. I was so shy. He would chuckle and give me a hug.

My mom comes into my room saying to get dressed were going out.

I sigh and say, "One second." But in reality it was 10 minutes. I go downstairs and my mom chuckles and says. "Just kidding you can go back I just wanted you to get dressed in case we have to go somewhere." I groan and make my way upstairs.

I get back to my gutair and strum random cords as Im learning. I get a notification on instagram saying Rye posted something.

No picture just him saying something

'Hey guys its me Rye. I just wanna hope none of this changes the way you think of me. I am gay!...'

I smile and keep reading

'I a week ago got a boyfriend. His name is Alphy. He's sweet, caring and always there for me. I have never been treated this way and Im greatful I am being treated with love not hate. Peace guys! x'

I lost my chance. I could have changed. I could have been Ryes love. But no I screwed everything up! 

I think. This is why Rye said we couldnt hang out. He has someone new. I have no one. Again. I throw my gutair making it break into pieces. "Andy!?" My mother yells. I hear whispering between two people. "Andy?" I hear another voice. Jack. 

He gasps at the sight of me. My mom takes me out of the room to talk.

Jack POV

I look at the broken gutair he loved. I see his phone with ryes post. I know Andy loved Rye. I take a picture and decide to talk about it.

For @fovvs... You may be sad, you may be mad, but remember to be glad...

I walked into one of my great friends house @fovvs. When I walked in from his mother letting me in I heard a loud bang from his room. His mother called, no reponse. I walked up calling his name. 

I walk in finding him next to his broken gutair. The gutair he loved. Whoever gave it to him, you made him happier. I have just heard from him. he says. "Life doesnt matter when your not happy. Whats the point when everyone you love is taken or gone? From death from moving from falling in love with someone else? Im tired of hiding the truth. Im not okay!" His mother terrified at his words yet I need to help him, and maybe you can too. Give him support not the hate he's been getting.

Peace out! x

I get a message from Rye straight away after I posted. 

Rye: What the hell happened Jack?!

Me: You'll have to ask him yourself.

Rye: Cant Im bust with Alphy.

Me: Have fun fucking the biggest player at school! Also...

Me

Were you busy with Alphy yesterday?

Rye: Wait.... no... Jack Im sorry! Where is Andy?

Me: His house

seen

I smirk. I wasnt lying though that was Alphy now Randy is back. 

Andy POV

I get a knock on my door. I open it and withoit knowing they push their lips on mine. I see him as they pull away. Rye.

"I love you Andrew Folwer, I always have."

"I love you too Ryan."

"You know what?" He asked.

I hum in reponse.

"Im not okay.."

I look at him confused.

"Im not okay, without you. So Andrew Robert Fowler, will you be my boyfriend?"

Instead of an anwser I wrap my legs around his waist. Give him a kiss. 

"Yes."

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Part of the beginning is what happened to me. I was struming my gutair and writing this. My mom told me to get dressed for dinner but she was kidding. The rest is the 

'History of Randy'

Im not mentally stable which as I said mess with my head which is my how do I say this. 'Problem.'

My parents dont know

Only a few friends and now you guys know.

Thanks for reading my one shots, book. It means a lot to me. Your reads, votes and comments show me that you enjoy.. It helps because I made something for people to read. At the beginning I was like shit no ones gonna read this. But over 4K reads. I think my mind is change??.

Peace love, talk to you this week on thursday with a phobia and chapter of my book!

                                                                   -Mia❤